Hello everyone,
I don’t know how to start this, so i will rant and we will see where it gets me, I came to the united state 2009, i was placed in the 8th grade , i was 13. i came from Nigeria, in Nigeria i went to school, i was not the brightest student(academic category that is) i never cared about school in Nigeria. When i got to the U.S.A something suddenly changed , i wanted to be a good student, i cared about learning and i wanted to have good grades, i worked hard and studied and listened in class and i did , i got A’s and B’s ( i have never gotten this in my whole life) I graduated 8th grade with 5-6 awards. people were impressed, people said i was smart (and i felt for the first time i had a brain), and i was very happy, and for the first time i felt like i could achieve high goals and compete with “smart” student (silly me) . Any ways i went on the high school, freshman year i Got A’s, B’s and C in English ( i never was good at English, i speak 3 languages, not making excuses ). sophomore year i had to move to another school, i hated the school , it was a nightmare, teachers did not care about the student, some student did not want to be in school, i complained about the school everyday, i took 2 honors classes (world history and English) i hate this two subject, math and Science is my favorite subject. At the end of sophomore year i got a 3.7. Then came junior year, teachers and my counselor told me to take AP classes, i listened to them and i took the two AP classes available to me (English and us history ) bear in my mind i hate this two subject. i joined all the clubs in my school and also joined track, Little did i know i was setting up myself up for failure, i was stressed out, i was depress and i lost weight, because i had a lot of school work, and my English teacher did not like me because i did not kiss her ass like other student ( i guess i should have). So i quiet track. i did all i could, i took the psat, i got a 130, i took the act i got a 21 and i took the AP exam i have a one in English and a 2 in AP us history ( very disappointing, i know) i ended up with a 3.4 unweighted GPA and a 3.6 weighted. My problem is i want to be a primary care physician i have always wanted to since the day i knew what it was, but i look at myself and i feel like am so dumb, and so stupid , since 8th grade have always set my goal higher, i thought i could do what the "smart " people could , some of my teacher call me smart, one of them even dared to call me intelligent, but it bring tears to my eyes because i feel like am not who they think i am , i don’t think am smart at all (academic wise) i feel like am the same girl from Nigeria who knows nothing and try to pretend she those… my parent expect the best from me and i just feel like i can never be who they want me to be, this is probably confusing for you, it is confusing for me too, this is the only way i can portray it. The question is , am i smart or have i been deceiving my self and others , because i try my best and i don’t get the result i want in the end. i would like to be a primary care physician, it is what i want to do, do i still have hope? am i doomed? What can i do too help myself? just lay it out there… advice , suggestion, comment, whatever it is , just help me out please. Thank you in advance. really appreciated.
Getting B+ average in high school is not “dumb”. You have a difficulty in English that you need to address. Maybe you should be tested for specific reading problems? Because you got Cs and didn’t fail your counselor probably didn’t think to suggest this.
If you are determined your fate really is in your hands. You may have to take an indirect route to medical school but you can still make it happen. If your scores aren’t great try HBCUs or community college. There is alot of support at HBCUs for remedial English.
You are not the only bright kid who struggles in a particular area. Get help, work at it, it’ll be worth it.
Thank you so much for your advice, i really appreciate it. I will definitely take your advice! 
Thank you!!
You have a vision of what you want to achieve, and you have overcome so many difficulties (moving to a new country, assimilating into a new culture, dealing with feeling “not smart”), that I really think you can do it! Success doesn’t come out of being “smart”, getting good test scores, and getting everything handed to you. Success comes out of persistence, confidence, and passion. It comes out of not being afraid of obstacles, and it comes out of wanting your goal so much that you will stop at nothing to achieve it. So, maybe you don’t think you “stack up” next to all the overconfident, braggy overachievers on this website- that’s how most everyone feels when they come here, including me. But please, don’t let that stop you from pursuing your dreams. Like jamcafe said, you should address your english difficulties, but don’t let them define you. Too many people here base their self-worth on how “smart” they are, or how “smart” the sat, act, or their gpa tells them they are. But really, you are so much more than that.
I have confidence that you will be able to get into good colleges, even with below-average test scores, because you are so unique and because you really have a vision of what you want to do. You are smart, and you don’t have to let your weaknesses make you feel like you’re not. You get better grades than a bunch of kids who have had everything handed to them. The ability to succeed lies within the ability to fail, and to overcome failure (not that you have truly failed, even though you feel like you have). Don’t lose hope or confidence in yourself. You speak 3 languages, you have an amazing life story, and you have good grades, besides your weaker subjects! You can do it!
Wow @loveartforever… thank you so very much, I seriously mean… you taking time not only reading my really long boring essay but also replying and giving me this amazing advice means so much to me… you are Incredible, thank you, you are so inspiring …and am really grateful for your advice… I will definitely take your advice to heart, thank you so much again:)
Wow @loveartforever… thank you so very much, I seriously mean it … you taking time not only reading my really long boring essay but also replying and giving me this amazing advice means so much to me… you are Incredible, thank you, you are so inspiring …and am really grateful for your advice… I will definitely take your advice to heart, thank you so much again
just believe
Thank you
Thank you, you’re so nice! Glad I could help, and good luck!
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