<p>We talked over the phone, and that was when he revealed his secret. Apparently, I’m the only other person to know besides his parents. He felt so relieved after that. I’m relieved too because I was so worried about how his secret would affect me (he told me that if I had done the same thing, he would’ve broken up with me…I’m more liberal, I guess). I also told him before he revealed the secret that I get a pang in my chest every time I look at his pics (this surprised me actually), but that I felt conflicted because I don’t know if we’ll last in the long run. This is a battle between rationality and emotion. I’ve spent like the entire weekend thinking about him, going through a roller coaster of emotions from fear to anger to loneliness to love to annoyance. Meanwhile, I rejected this other boy because I just couldn’t see myself with him (he has little time for anything else besides acting). This has been a weird week and has made feel uncertain about my future.</p>
<p>sanjenferrer,
What an emotional roller-coaster! You need some “sanjen” time, to do sth goofy or to chill out. Do you have any good friends you can hang out, go on a trip during the break, or sth? Take care.</p>
<p>sanjer
how about you go on a date with the dude that likes you. to see where you are with your ex and if its even possible to move on.</p>
<p>Skygirl, yes, but we’re plagued by exams right now. We’re planning a roadtrip to California in the summer. I did go to a dance show on Friday and am busily planning for my group’s own in 2 weeks.</p>
<p>Duckedtape, I already did. We talked for like 9 hours straight the first time we met. I thought we were compatible once, but I realized he’s too vain.</p>
<p>do you want a relationship or no? that simple</p>
<p>Ugh, he was clearly trying to make me jealous, and that turns me off a lot. It’s distasteful, dramatic, and cheesy. Right now, I’m feeling like staying single! I kinda miss not having a commitment with someone else.</p>
<p>how was he trying to make you envious?</p>
<p>Aww I really wanted to know the secret…we won’t tell…lol</p>
<p>Of course you miss him. You need to take a break from him (and possibly go on a few dates) and see if you actually miss 1)being in a relationship, 2) suddenly not being with him (like you’re out of routine), 3) you actually miss him. A lot of people mistake #2 with actually wanting to be with that person.</p>
<p>From your previous posts, I really think you should try to move on. These problems keep occuring, yet you keep going back. Nothing is going to change no matter what he says.</p>
<p>Oh…</p>
<p>if you were a guy, I’d tell you to call “her” up and say </p>
<p>“***** I NEED MY CHEERIOS”</p>
<p>^ he is a guy</p>
<p>Ok, say it anyway lol </p>
<p>“I got a rumble in my belly…I am R Kelly”</p>
<p>Duckedtape, he posted a pic on Facebook of some guy touching him down there, and he posted a comment saying he liked it. It’s not that I’m jealous… I’m annoyed that he’s trying to make me jealous. I saw that and literally thought to myself “That’s it-- I will look elsewhere.” Actually, I’ll just wait until someone comes along. At the very least, he will not be someone who strategizes to manipulate my emotions.</p>
<p>your ex posted that? or the guy that liked you?</p>
<p>So that picture was the secret? That’s just trashy of him to do.</p>
<p>so hes gay?</p>
<p>im confused</p>
<p>maybe hes a bisexual, but he said that you shouldnt do it either</p>
<p>so maybe hes implying that you shouldnt make out with another girl</p>
<p>Ohh, he’s gay.</p>
<p>Yes, my ex posted the pic, but that wasn’t his secret. I actually don’t feel the urge to call him anymore.</p>
<p>He went to my show… what a surprise, since he said he wasn’t going to make it. He commuted for 2 hours just to get there and missed half the show. My parents drove him home. So nice of him!</p>
<p>Anyway, I think I’m falling for this other guy I shouldn’t be falling for. Every time he compliments me, I’m like OMGOMGYES!!! inside. I’ve been thinking about him a lot…and I think I actually have feelings for him.</p>
<p>It’s hopeless, guys. He just got married a few days ago.</p>
<p>i dont believe you anymore
unless we get actual proof</p>
<p>It was his FB status, lol.</p>