<p>I have an inability to study unless there is sufficient pressure or threat of failure. I just stayed up all night, well, sleeping 2 hours, because the pressure of an upcoming exam kept me awake. If I tried to study a week ago, I would just stare at my book and say, “yep…pages.” </p>
<p>It’s not like when Im lifting where I can just use sheer force of will and grunting to achieve more reps. There’s no way to really push myself to study other than threat of failure. If I get an A, and this is a very rare occurance mind you, I’m just like, “wow, I put in way too much effort into something I’ll never use”</p>
<p>Why am I like this? Is it because I’m a ballin’, street smart player who’s actually LIVED in his life, and, realizing that said life is precious, doesn’t want to spend it memorizing painfully sucky nonsense? Or is it my upbringing, wherein homework-doing was never encouraged and the only thing which I received positive reinforcement for was mowing the lawn? Please help me, help me to be like you, nerds!</p>