I have been studying for the SAT II Math 2 for a very long time and I am not very worried especially since many people have told me that the practice tests I’ve been taking (John Chung,Barrons) are much, much harder than the actual test and that I will be fine. However, my mother insists on making me worry and freak out. Everyday she will come to me with something she is worried about. Whether it be AP Spanish or SAT II and she constantly yells at me to practice when I have an essay due the next day. I am absolutely sick of everything she is making me go through and I feel as if I will reach a lower score because of how much she wants me to worry and not function properly. She acts like she knows everything but honestly she just wants me to stress out which I was trying to recover from.
I don’t really know how to study for it anymore. I’ve solved so many practice tests and I’m always getting more than 10 wrong. I know part of it is stupid mistakes but she’s also forcing me to take these classes every Saturday after school where all I do is solve more and more tests and she always cries about being so worried she is driving me insane. Being in the same building as her makes me want to jump off of a cliff because all she wants to see is me freaking out. I have no idea what to do because every time she motivates me to NOT study because of how angry she makes me.
This sounds like an issue that you should talk to a counselor about. It’s not uncommon - I know a lot of people who have/had similar problems.
Go talk to a guidance counselor (or a health counselor, if you have one) at your school. They may be able to get someone to help you talk though everything without having to go through your mom
Ideally, you and your mom would go to a therapist together (or talk it through by yourselves) but usually the people I talk to are (understandably) nervous about that
@julianstanley Right now I’ve just been trying to ignore her but she tries to bring up the topic whenever we are together. I will try to talk to a counselor because this is certainly not the only time I will need to talk to her. I would prefer not going to a therapist with her because she simply refuses to acknowledge her faults. She’s only ever said sorry to me twice in my entire life. I know this is her messed-up way of showing that she “cares” for me but at this point in time my mental state is an absolute mess. I’ve had depression and suicidal thoughts that have gone uncared for and they pop up at random times. I know what I am doing and I am trying my very best to handle my own school life but she is constantly comparing me to other kids and saying how I will end up getting a bad score. Shouldn’t a parent try to give their kid confidence and reassure them instead of making them feel so uneasy and horrible everytime they take a test? I took an Alg2/Precalc Honors course last year and I ended up getting a C on my final even thought my year end letter grade was an A- and my overall GPA (unweighted) was a 4.0 she always brings up my final at everytime and tries to make me worry about everything. My teachers already know about how much I worry about my schoolwork and they always try to reassure me but when I get home my mother tries to get rid of my confidence and instill more anxiety into my blood.