<p>Hello!</p>
<p>So, to start off, I’ve never been on a forum like this to ask for advice lol. I’ll give you all some background information (that you can skip if you want) but I feel like it would help in identifying with my situation. Any questions please ask! Genuine advice, please. </p>
<p>So, in high school, two hours north of my university, I was the typical academic over-achiever with straight A’s, accepted into honors societies, executive positions in a few different clubs, tons of community service hours, GPA of 4.2, and an SAT of 1790. I also had a serious boyfriend who I had been dating since the beginning of Sophomore year. Ill talk about that later.</p>
<p>I am currently a freshman at a state school in my home state as a pre-pharmacy major. I was ecstatic to go to an urban school with a higher IQ pool than my high school. They had so many medical opportunities and clubs that I couldn’t wait to get involved with. </p>
<p>I had some seriously messed up family problems all throughout high school. My boyfriend is my best friend and has been there for me through it all. My senior year, I had to move out and live on my own. My boyfriends family has taken the place of my family. My boyfriend went to the local college back home. We got a couple weeks into the separation, then he decided that it was too much for him for us to be separated. We aren’t broken up, but more so on hold because he doesn’t want to be sad with the thought of the distance while he is trying to have the freshman experience. If it works out, we will be getting engaged in the summer. There was one catch though, he said that if I were up there with him for this year, we would get engaged because I would be with him and he wouldn’t have to be sad with the distance while experiencing freshman year. That is tempting. He is the only person in my life and although we are basically dating still, there is no commitment with the “single” status, which terrifies me. He doesn’t think that I thought about transferring, and he really doesn’t know that Im thinking about taking time off from college. He knows schooling is the only way to happiness. I don’t know what he will feel.</p>
<p>On top of the boyfriend drama, I haven’t been happy here; miserable at best. The girls on my floor are so "click"y and even though I go to their open doors and talk, it’s always awkward silence from their part. I’m EXTREMELY shy to begin with and they aren’t very welcoming. I am overwhelmed with my course load because all of the teachers are basically saying we are all doomed unless we are gifted like ***. They give no direction and give vague answers when I or anybody else asks questions. I do not feel at home here. I am used to being a small fish because of my high school, but never have I had to work so hard just to breathe in between all of the work. I have been crying every night since I got here; with no family support its even harder still. My dream is to join a sorority and take some cooking/dance classes. That would make me happy. They don’t have any classes like that here though, and with my course load, I can’t rush. =/</p>
<p>With all of that said, I was thinking about taking my spring semester off to go back home. While I am off, I would strictly work and volunteer and have a fiance. I have to be in school for 6 years for my pharmacy degree so I figured a semester off wouldn’t hurt. I would go to school with my boyfriend for a semester, but the financial aid aspect would get all messed up I think, so that’s out of the question.</p>
<p>I know that making educational decisions based on a relationship is literally the stupidest thing that anybody could ever do, but he really is like my family and lifeline. I am so unhappy here in the situation we are in now. Once the engagement is finalized, I can come back down with the security and I can finish school and be happy. and YES, I would come back, I would be too bored if I wasn’t in school lol.</p>
<p>I am not sure if I can stand sucking it up and just finishing out the spring semester, or if it really is better for me to take it off and come back next fall. </p>
<p>thank you so incredibly much.</p>