Hello, I’m 19 years old and I’m currently on my 4th semester on engineering school of a 10 semester program (4.5 years). I’m 5 hours away from home and I live with my father (my parents are divorced). The reason why I left home is that I didn’t want to be there anymore, because I thought my city was too small for me, and I wanted to be in a bigger city. But now… I feel like I regret doing that. I’ve been depressed my entire stay here (1.5 years) and it’s only getting worse. I only get to go back home every 3-4 months, and I stay there for 2.5 months, but when I get back I feel like crap and like wanting to say “what the hell, I feel miserable, I’m not going to get back” but I end getting back anyway.
Back home I had a great life, great friends, my entire family is back there, my girlfriend is there (I miss her so much) but here… I have nothing, just my father (which I don’t have a great relationship with though). Yes, I do have friends here, but most of them get back home on weekends, as they live closer than I do. I don’t know what to do… I already told my mother I wanted to get back, and she said it’d be a big mistake, and she wouldn’t support me… so I guess if I do get back, I’m gonna be by myself.
So my options are: 1.- Transfer college back home, keep studying and get a job 'cause I don’t think my mother would support me or 2.- Take a semester off, get back home, get a job and enjoy being with my family, girlfriend and friends for a while.
P.S.: If I do transfer, I wouldn’t live in the same city as my family, I would be just 45minutes-1hour away, and I would be able to get back or visit my family whenever I wanted to, so now I’d live by my own, but much much closer to home.