Hey, guys,
I am having serious issue with my learning or working style and also very confused with that at the same time. I am a junior Biology major. I am having low GPA which is below 3 right now. I am trying to figure out why I am getting this GPA. I do not define myself as a lazy person since I have seen myself working really hard for the past years. Btw, I am an international student. So, I took 4 SAT subject tests (all science subjects), SAT general and TOFEL. I got average 750 for all subject tests and got really good score for SAT and TOFEL too. Honestly, taking four subject tests and doing well in all of them needs a lot of work. You might agree with that. But, when I got into the college, I found myself not being able to study well. All those assignments, deadlines and instructions make me suffocated and shut down all my learning ability. So, I also analyzed my past experience in high school. I did not do any marvelous job in high school and was an average student. The only time I found myself doing awesome work was when I work alone and when I have to be in charge of everything. So, this fact make me hard to define myself as a person who is bad in managing skill. Let me tell you some awesome works I did. Regardless of low GPA, I work as research assistant for past two years. Last year, my professor found my final project for her class most interesting and best work in the class. (That project was only project that gave me total freedom and room for creation. I really wish all of my other classes have that kind of project so I can show I can do very well. Professor even remarked I am amazingly hard working person and can really do research). There is one last thing that I did amazingly and I was always proud of myself for it. I found a library (more like non-profit library for people with certain kind of need. Honestly, everyone loves and amazes with what I did. My library has certain success. And a lot of people remark my work ethic too) So, I have been trying to redefine myself and figuring out what my ability is for past years. Seriously guys, I do bad things on assignments and exams. But, on the other side of me, I did some marvelous thing that people really said “Wow” and “unbelievable”. I also have this friend. Her GPA is really low like mine. But, she has already published one paper, and trying to publish other two. She has been doing research for past three years. But, she is still getting D in some classes. So, she talked about her problem to me. And I found that is exactly the same as mine. She cannot work with any instruction under any circumstances at all. But, she do really great in research. I really want to know if any one of you has same condition like us. I really want and appreciate your comment, opinion and suggestions. Thank you so much guys.