Hi! Okay so I wanted to write about overcoming my suicidal thoughts for my college essay. I feel like it says a lot about me that I was able to get up each day and decide that I wanted to live even though it was a struggle. I’ll write about how I deal with it, and make sure to express to them that I take pride in it. I’m proud of myself for continuously dealing with something this hard everyday. Here’s an excerpt that I wrote for my essay
“I stare at the ceiling and decide that I am going to live. Despite how I feel now, or how I will feel in the future, I am going to live. For them. For me. For that hope that one day I’ll have so much going for me that the thought won’t even cross my mind.
It’s hard. It’s really hard. But I do it. I ask for help. I talk about how I’m feeling because I know that it’ll make me feel better. I take medicine to keep me on my feet. I learn how to tell when I’m not thinking rationally, and I tell people I trust. I force myself to get up, get dressed, and go to school each day. I live.”
I know it’s kind of risky, but this is really important to me. What do you think? Do you think there’s any way this could work out for me? TBH I don’t really know what I’m doing, and I want some other opinions