<p>LTS, you just need to plan your routes, to pass by chain restaurants. 
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<p>Have a fun run tomorrow!</p>
<p>I am running with youā¦</p>
<p>Did anyone see the Nova special a couple of weeks ago that followed a dozen or so sedentary people who trained for the New York City Marathon. One guy was diagnosed with HIV 10 years ago, another had had a heart attack several years ago, another had gotten very overweight while recovering from back surgery a year earlier, etc.</p>
<p>LTS - theyāll be looking for you for the sequel! And youāll be the most fashionably dressed one of them all.</p>
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<p>Re cancer, fashion, etc., the graphic memoir Cancer Vixen has some pretty cool passages in it, as I recall. </p>
<p>[Cancer</a> Vixen by Marisa Acocella Marchetto - Books - Random House](<a href=āhttp://www.randomhouse.com/catalog/display.pperl?isbn=9780307263575]Cancerā>http://www.randomhouse.com/catalog/display.pperl?isbn=9780307263575)</p>
<p>LTS, was thinking of you in temple this weekend. It was the 69th anniversary of Kristallnacht, so for the closing hymn we sang Hannah Senescheās poem. </p>
<p>She was so brave! She parachuted behind German enemy lines to join the resistance, but was immediately captured. </p>
<p>She handed a poem to a friend that she wrote out that day. What struck me was how she widened her horizons when anyone else might only focus on things closing in.</p>
<p>She wrote (translated from Hebrew): "Oh Lord, My God,
I pray that these things never end:
the sand and the sea,
the rush of the waters
the crash of the heavens
the prayer of the heart,</p>
<p>the sand and the sea.
the rush of the waters,
the crash of the heavens,
the prayer of the heart."</p>
<p>Anyway, her ability to widen the lens when under pressure reminded me of you.</p>
<p>On the bathroom thing, yes you can use chain restaurants. Also many large parks have portapotties. My favorite place for walking (here in the Seattle area) is a large park with a set of nice bark mulch pathsā¦ and portapotties. In DC, I used to run in Glover Park ā which had plenty of big trees.</p>
<p>LTS - God bless you.</p>
<p>Hope you have a great run LTS! Thinking about you.</p>
<p>lts, if you would have came last month you would have felt the overnight drop off from 85 degree weather to 45 degree weather, so we know how you feel about that whole thing! This cold weather came out of nowhere! or rather, the WARM weather into october came out of nowhere!</p>
<p>Iāve always envied males the ability to p** gracefully standing up. </p>
<p>What a beautiful, heartbreaking poem, paying3tuitions. Iām afraid to ask what happened to her.</p>
<p>Oh, my, thank you for all the lovely posts, and especially Hannah Senescheās poem, and also for the link to Cancer Vixen. </p>
<p>I had a terrific morning - the run/walk should have taken 90 minutes but took a little over two hours, with the extra time taken up for bathroom stops, and we took the wrong road during one leg of it and had to double back. </p>
<p>I learned that the past 60 days have taken a bit of a toll, in that I can not run as fast, or as far, as I could before, however, the really awesome news is that I absolutely CAN still run, AND break into a hard sprint, and, I can most likely recover and improve.</p>
<p>It was a stunningly beautiful morning and I enjoyed every minute of it. Iāve decided that I am going to need to fit into my schedule running every day, even on chemotherapy days. Kelowna, I hope you enjoyed this as much as I did :)</p>
<p>Then, I went shopping for the rest of the day - found some hot new clothes to wear over the holidaysā¦ :)</p>
<p>latetoschool: You are a force of nature. Now if I could only do one tenth as well without Cancer.</p>
<p>I am sure your hot clothes are ā¦hot!</p>
<p>Okay LTS, when you get a minute, we need the run/chain restaurant update. :)</p>
<p>NYMom
Hannah was executed. Even behind bars, she sang and wrote poetry and inspired others around her. She was 22. an exerpt from Wiki:</p>
<p>"Szenes was born to an assimilated Jewish family in Hungary. Her father, B</p>
<p>I was afraid of that, bookworm. What a waste of an exceptional woman. I guess her name is spelled various ways? </p>
<p>Thinking of you, LTS.</p>
<p>LTS,</p>
<p>I just want to make sure you donāt miss this thread:
<a href=āhttp://talk.collegeconfidential.com/parent-cafe/417168-person-year.html#post4907564[/url]ā>http://talk.collegeconfidential.com/parent-cafe/417168-person-year.html#post4907564</a>
in which you are clearly the front-runner as āCC Person of the Year.ā One poster referred to you as a āprofile in courage.ā</p>
<p>I guess mods should not be partisan, but I hope you can imagine my reaction. :)</p>
<p>LTS,
Thinking of you this morning. You are brave and deserve that award!</p>
<p>I donāt even know what to say or postā¦I really donāt. Thank you. But/and - there are other members of the CC community who have similarly difficult challenges. One of them I learned about in PM, and, I asked permission to post about so that person could also have benefit of support, and, I didnāt get permission. Perhaps it will come laterā¦in any case, why donāt we have categories? There are a LOT of people here who contribute great value - I think back to the times when I learned something of value from a post, often in threads where I didnāt even participate, and in the rush that is life I never even told the person or thanked them. Perhaps if there can be categories it will serve as an opportunity to recognize the people who contribute so greatly to the community. </p>
<p>My week has been just slightly challenging - after two hours of walk/running Sunday, developed a cough Monday, slight fever Tuesday; I am on travel the balance of this week so my oncologist called in an antibiotic. I already feel better so hopefully will have a full recovery in time for chemo next week.</p>
<p>Monday, I sent in a proposal to the Lance Armstrong Foundation for a holiday fundraiser to support the research efforts for all cancers. They are supposed to respond by Friday - I am not sure if it wlll be approved on first draft, or, if they will come back with corrections. Itās not my best work but if they at least let me progress it, we will have a fundraiser in place for the holidays. Iāll post back if I can get this off the ground. </p>
<p>Had a simply terrible experience with a trial inquiry. I wonāt be eligible for this until sometime after the first of the year - it sounds good on surface, as, itās for people who achieve remission; if Iām lucky enough to get randomized into the second or third arm, I could get a vaccine, or, a vaccine with a drug - pretty good options as the endgame for me at that point will be to head off a relapse. The first arm is far less attractive - itās the standard of care arm, AND, one cannot participate in any other trials at the same time. But I have to go through the entire process of signing up for it, before Iāll be told where Iām randomized (I wonāt do that until I can talk it through with my oncologist). </p>
<p>In any case, in the process of putting the pieces of it together, the rep in the business office of the national cancer center doing the trial said to me āwait a minute - why havenāt you applied for disability? with your type of cancer, you are considered to be immediately disabled, and you can get Medicare, and then you wonāt have to work any more, etc.ā</p>
<p>I tried to explain to this fool that I love my work, I will never stop doing it as long as I am alive, Iād never planned to retire anyway, even before my diagnosis; my work is critical to my mental well being, and, if I were to quit my work, I would die of emotional duress long before I would ever die of cancer. </p>
<p>She then said that there are ways to go ahead and file for disability and keep working, the trick is to get paid in different ways. At that point I simply lost it, and burst into tears. I started crying and could not stop and basically cried the rest of the day. Part of my work involves preventing fraud, and I cannot stand the suggestion that I become the very thing I have worked so hard to stop. Actually, I cannot stand any of this, but that suggestion just somehow makes things ten times worse. What makes it worse is that the doctor who diagnosed me in the hospital (the one I tossed out of my room) said something similar to me when I refused to file for disability - āset up a shell company or get paid under the table and collect your disability at the same timeā he said.</p>
<p>I wish I werenāt so emotional over this stuff - it seems like someone says something horrible to me, and it derails me for hours. I have to find some way to accept that people are simply going to sometimes without warning say the unthinkable and unacceptable, and I have to find a way to deal with it so that it does not impact me so much. I wish I were more like Randy Pausch, or perhaps Hannahā¦</p>
<p>Iām glad youāre just like you.</p>
<p>Iām glad youāre just like you, too, LTS. As strong as you are, you cannot prevent an increased emotional vulnerability, and those suggestions that you do things that go against your very essence must feel like stabbings. How fortunate you are compared to the woman whose life is so limited that she cannot even imagine work as a source of strength and meaning.</p>
<p>Iām keeping my fingers crossed for the fundraiser!</p>