One foot in front of the other, one step at a time. Auditioning for colleges is time-consuming and exhausting and most don’t understand it. Have you finished all of them? Could you drop some? You definitely should be evaluated for depression and please make sure you are keeping your teachers aware of your pressures. When my D auditioned for colleges, she found the teachers to be pretty flexible (except for the gym teacher, but that’s another story!). I concur with several things that bopper mentioned but I would caution you about speaking to a school GC or psychologist regarding the accusation other than simply expressing that the accusation and process took a lot out of you. Anything else about that should probably be expressed to only an outsider. It is good, however, to keep your GC updated as to your schoolwork efforts b/c some colleges call GCs.