Swearing - is it okay in this instance?

<p>I’m writing an essay about my father - and I’m wondering about the use of profanity. I know it’s usually a no-go, but I think the use of strong words underlines the anger/disappointment. Do not concern yourself with the particular mistakes in English - especially the commas, I’m not native, and will ask a native to correct the final draft. </p>

<p>This is how I remember the end of the world:
“I do not want this day to end,” my father stated, staring at the darkening stains on my mothers’ dress. She whimpered in a way that would haunt me forever, desperately trying to get some air. Her nose was smashed, and her left eye was shockingly red from a damaged blood vessel.
… (Here are a few paragraphs)</p>

<p>“This day could last forever,” my father said, and laid down the letter, which said ‘We regret to tell you…’, which in reality meant “**** off, we don’t want you.”</p>

<p>(The essay basically tells us about we both react differently to difficult situations - and how I always thought his words were callous and uncaring. The essay ends with him dying and me wishing for this day to last forever - a philosophy I didn’t understand until this very day.)</p>

<p>Do you think I can leave this profanity? I’m always annoyed that I can’t hear the subtle undertones of English… :-(</p>

<p>No, probably not… it’s not even a direct quote, so I wouldn’t risk it.</p>

<p>I wouldn’t use it…</p>

<p>no…find another word that isn’t profanity but still expresses ur anger.</p>

<p>Not vital to the story.</p>

<p>I disagree. this is your voice in your writing, it’s how you felt at the time, and if the situation was something as serious as death, vulgar words would have been the last thing in your mind. tell it how it was.</p>

<p>You can use another word instead if that.
Profanity is a very big turn-off</p>