I got into secondary education because I love literature, I love helping people, and I love getting people excited about reading. But one semester into the program, I am in abject misery. I count down the minutes until I get to leave my placement and I spend the whole time panicking. I can’t connect with the kids or with my coop teacher. My methods classes are completely miserable.
I’m thinking about being a youth or kids’ librarian instead. I would graduate as an English major and have to do two years of grad school, which, given my anxiety, is a pretty daunting prospect-but not as daunting as trying to force myself through student teaching when I hate every second of it. This summer, I am going to shadow some librarians and see what their day to day lives are like.
I want to quit the program this summer, and I haven’t mostly because my parents and grandmother are helping me pay for college and don’t want me to quit. Any advice?