This is probably going to be a rant

<p>Oh boy how do we start this? There is so much to say, most that you probably don't care about. Not that I blame you, nor expect a response. I need to get out emotions and worries and I thought here was as good a place as any. I'm a 16 year old male and I'm bi sexual. It's really obvious to anyone who pays attention but I haven't told many people yet. About three friends know. I feel like I should tell others but I think I will after some of my ECs die down later this year. I haven't come put to my family yet, which I really should and it's not even that "Will they still love me?!" thing. I'm sure they will either accept it or pretend like I didn't say it. Either way is fine because they can't live without me. ;) also, I have a girlfriend. She's just wonderful, I've known her since Pre-k and we just work. Were not overly flirtatious, we understand each others humor, and were both quiet. Well, sometimes I'm quiet, but I like for other people to believe I'm outgoing. I haven't told her that I'm Bi, probably because I'm nervous. I don't think she will care or she will probably do a "No duh Sherlock" kind of thing. She just knows me. If you haven't noticed by now, I'm not good with emotions. I experience them, but I never really feel. I don't cry, and not because I'm some tough manly man, no, I can't stand those guys, but it's because I never show or feel emotions. I know that they are there but it's always through a magnifying glass that I see them. Which sucks because being more emphatic would help with so many things. Um, I have no close friends. I keep everyone at an arm's length l away. I let one friend close, but we had an argument and I just cut her out of my life. Then she wanted to be friends again and I let her, but it's not like before. I hold back, I know I do and I feel like I should because I know she hasn't changed. I just took pity on her. I used to have close friends when I was little but every single one moved away and more that half got into drugs or some other crime thing. I don't do that. My father, well, he liked to party and still does and I've seen the effects of all "fun" things. It's not pretty and it has ruined my relationship with him. Um, god there's so much other stuff but I don't feel right telling random strangers. All of this I could care less because if you judge me then I can just be like "oh cool. Some random kid on the Internet doesnt like me. Oh gosh!" but there are some things that are private and I dont like sharing. Weird, I know. So I got the bi thing out, my girl friend, no close friends, daddy issues, all the good stuff. Ha. Good news, I love who I am, I like having my personality, I don't want to be like everyone else because I am my own person, and that's about it. If you've read all this, well, thank you. I hope you had a good read and it flowed nicely. Most of my writing doesn't. If you feel the need to comment then please do. If you just wanted to read this because why not, then I hoped you enjoyed me pouring out my soul. And that's about it. Goodnight CC kids. :)</p>

<p>You seem to be mentally coping with stressors alright.</p>

<p>Paragraphs man, paragraphs. It's okay I do it when I rant too. It seems like you're looking for a response, but I'm not quite sure what kind. You don't seem to be uncomfortable with the fact that you're bi or that you have to tell people you're bi, so I don't think you need any encouragement there. As far as pushing people away, I can relate. I regret it as soon as I do it. If you don't want to pour out your emotions to that person, tell them you don't want to. It keeps them closer, as long as you can tell them that you have stuff going on, but don't want to talk about it. It's worse to pretend nothing's wrong and push people away because you don't want them to ask questions.</p>

<p>OMG two poster can not divide paragraphs whew...
To response to some of your passage (im calling it that): Cool story, bro.</p>

<p>To be more serious, What will you do now?</p>

<p>My actions upon clicking this thread:
1. View gigantic block of text
2. Get scared
3. Write comment
4. Leave thread</p>

<p>paragraphs are your friend!</p>

<p>I read your post, but I'm sorry if I don't exactly see a problem.</p>

<p>Are you upset that you'll have a large field of sexual and romantic candidates to draw from? Or is it more that everyone you know accepts you for you? Or that you choose not to have a crowd of friends?</p>

<p>@Des, I think I'll tell my girlfriend soon. Then my family, and then everyone. After my family knows, everyone else won't matter.
@Jim I think you may have read this incorrectly. I'm fine with being by sexual. No problems there. I haven't told many people (3 as stated in my rant) so I'm not sure if everyone accepts me. Those 3 have. As for friends, well I guess I regret not letting people in but I'm just not able to do that. I don't know how. I have many fine friends just no close ones that I talk to outside of school.</p>

<p>I'm bi toooo! :) lol, good luck. I told my family and they ignore it, but that's how i like it.</p>

<p>Uh, I'm bi too ( writing this in secrecy) gl though.</p>

<p>What exactly do you need luck for? What is it that you intend to gain by sharing this with us?</p>

<p>^LOL @ jimbo</p>

<p>Jim, I never asked for luck? And I expect nothing out of this. It was for me to vent and to see if anyone wanted to hear my story. That's all.</p>


<p>btw *couldn't care less</p>