The deposit deadline is tomorrow and I’m currently torn between attending the University of Southern California and SUNY Geneseo with no idea how to make a proper decision.
I visited USC last week and was incredibly impressed by the campus and quality of life factors which would accompany my stay there (LA, weather, school spirit). Academically, I know that USC blows Geneseo out of the water, especially in my major (philosophy, in which USC has invested heavily over the past decade). There is also a distinct advantage in regards to internship opportunities, quality of instruction, and prestige in relation to the possibility of future law school admissions. I know that it’s often championed that my undergraduate school isn’t important when law schools make their admissions decisions, but I’ve heard personally from a number of law school admissions officers and lawyers in the corporate world that the prestige of an undergraduate institution can make a significant difference.
The only pro for Geneseo is its price - with my current financial aid, 4 years of school there will cost $26,000, as opposed to the $28k/year which I will be paying at USC. My finances are interesting because, despite my qualifying for almost the maximum amount of Pell grants (5815/5860), I have nearly $100,000 set aside for educational purposes as left to me by my grandparents. My expected debt upon graduation from USC would be about $15,000 in government loans, as opposed to the $75,000 which I would have in my account if I attended Geneseo.
Financially, it makes absolutely no sense for me to attend USC. But I’m afraid of Geneseo due to my own tendencies to slack off when not suitably challenged. In talking to current Geneseo students and looking at the rigor of their classes, I don’t know if I would be able to do the simple “get a 4.0 at the easy school and then apply to grad school”; I have issues with ADD and depression and I’m worried that I’d be unable to work hard unless I was forced to work hard, which I am fairly sure would not happen at Geneseo. Teachers of mine who are Geneseo alumni and who are aware of my academic proclivities have told me that it would not be a good fit for me and that I would be better suited at a school which afforded me more opportunities to apply myself, but it’s hard to turn down the opportunity to save nearly $100,000.
Pros and Cons list for those that don’t want to read my ravings:
USC pros: Location, internships, alumni network, honors program (I am in the Thematic Option), academic rigor, quality of life, law school matriculation into Gould
USC cons: Far from home (I live in upstate NY), expensive/debt on graduation
Geneseo pros: cheap cheap cheap cheap, close to home
Geneseo cons: not difficult enough, not part of the honors program, poor fit with school culture
I hate how whiny and privileged this situation makes me sound, but my being unable to stomach the idea of Geneseo is the result of a lot of soul searching. I’ve known quite a few similar individuals who attended similar/better schools (McGill and UVM Honors, for example) that went through the exact things that I am afraid of: they weren’t suitably challenged, they became depressed or drug dependent, and they ultimately dropped out. I’d love to just “put my nose to the grindstone” as suggested to numerous CC posters in similar situations, but I’m not sure if I’m capable of doing so.
Thank you in advance for the help, this is all really stressing me out (along with AP studying) to the point that I can barely write coherently (as I’m sure you noticed).