is a complicated nature of mentality among ED/EAers.</p>
<p>It encompasses a very wide range of feelings such as:</p>
<p>hope that I will get in
+ anxiety that what if I won't?
+ bent for "seniorities"
+ pressure that I have to fill out other apps
+ confusion at whether to take standardized tests again
+ regret for past laziness
+ again, hope that I will get in, any way
+ still, worry that I won't</p>
<p>If you become an "earlist," you can't go back to your normal life with hard work, passion, and energy.</p>
<p>You stand in-between pessimism and optimism. You don't exactly know where you are. That disorientation really bothers you.</p>
<p>Do you agree with me?</p>