I just started my junior year at high school. I’m actually crying about leaving school from now (that sounded childish…), because I’m just imagining how aweful would that be. How is it like to leave school and get into college. Also, if there’s that one thing you’d do now if you were in school, what would it be?
It depends on what college you’re in, where it is, what you’re studying, and a whole slew of other variables.
But, if it is of any comfort to you, a great many people prefer college over high school.
Here’s the worst part…
I have lived my entire life as an expat and I really love the country I live in. This year, I discovered I have roots in this country, which made me love it even more. But I do not have the nationality. There is a very high chance I leave it once I graduate from school and I don’t want this. It’s a hard decision for me whether to stay or leave to a place with better ed.
I really love the school I’m in as well. I’m not the kind of student who is disgusted at school. I love everything about it: the stress, the tests, seeing people in groups, teachers scolding the troublesome students, and all other details… good and bad. I appreciate every day I spend in school. I don’t know how I’ll get over leaving it 
On another note - I’ll probably study one of these:
Physics (theoretical)
Computer Science
Animation
It’s two years away. There is no need to make yourself cry over something that won’t happen for another half(!) of your high school career.
Leaving your country is one thing; that’s something that you’ll have to think about whenever you start doing research on different colleges. But it doesn’t have to be all-or-nothing if you do leave; depending on where you go and the resources you’re able to set aside, you can always come back over breaks and for holidays.
But maybe you have the wrong idea about college? College also has classes, stress, homework, exams, groups of people, students, etc. Professors don’t really scold students because they recognize that we’re all adults, and students don’t misbehave, because they’re paying to take the class and need to do well to get where they want to go in life. There are other perks too: you can choose what classes you take and when, you can do research and take on projects outside of class, working with professors and faculty. You won’t have as much homework. You’ll probably meet a lot of new people from all types of backgrounds, and there are many social events on campuses that will help you get to know people.
And most importantly, you’ll be getting closer to what you might want to do with your life. You’ll be able to learn so much more about physics and / or computer science / animation than you can in high school. And you’ll be able to connect with other professors and students who are passionate about the same things. You’ll be leaving meaningful things behind, but they aren’t gone forever, and there’s so much in store for you; it might help to think of college like that.
If I were back in my old high school, I wouldn’t be able to stand it, haha. You really realize how much of high school classwork and homework is pointless busywork. And I’d also be in classes I didn’t like. Other than saying “Hi” to some old teachers, there isn’t much left for me there.
You are facing the painful side of growing up and changes. Flip it over in your mind and there is the exciting amazing side too. You can’t stay in high school forever, nor should you. Whether or not you can or should stay in the country that you live in is an issue that you can work through over the next year or so. You may continue to cry on and off through this transition, but that won’t change the fact that you will keep growing and you will need to face these decisions.
My family are expats too. My daughter has never lived in the USA except for long vacations until now. She too loves the country where she was raised and is fluent in the language. She is in the states in college. Our company will pay for her to visit at Christmas time. Your parents may have a similar benefit. And if you love the expat lifestyle so much you can become one again after you finish college.
Also, once you all graduate you and your friends are likely to scatter around the USA at a variety of colleges.
College>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>High School