<p>Does anyone know an opportunity for me to get out of my sick life? </p>
<p>I go to public high school as a 9th grade, and I don’t fit in anywhere. I have no
friends. I don’t have any kids that I want to be friends with, nor do they wants to be friend with me. I spend most of my time thinking about topics related to sociology/philosophy which none of my peers seems to be interested about. I hate the days when teacher makes us to choose partner and I just sit in my sit until my teacher have to assign me a partner. I’m so lonely here. I hate being in class discussions where the hypocrites talk unoriginal craps like “Bullying is bad.” Also I live in a very rural place so opportunities for things I crave (ex. learning a new language ). I hate textbooks because what I want is intellectual conversations and discussions. All I do is sit in my little room and have a discussion about why a life must be incomplete without a professional to humble me or support me. I’m just echoing myself. </p>
<p>I know, there’s a millions of programs for talented kids who needs academic challenge. But in school, I’m just a normal student. I have IQ of 130, which is not very “gifted”. Besides the time for my homework, I barely study for an hour. But I get straight A’s. I applied prep schools like Exeter this year, but I don’t think they give a crap about financially poor and physically ill student. Boarding schools were only opportunity I knew that would bring me deep relationships with people and intellectual discussions, but now they are gone I’m just so dreaded that I have to keep going through the embarrassing moment of teacher assigning me a partner in front of the whole class for another 3 years. I want to skip high school but I don’t know any information regarding it. </p>
<p>Sorry I rambled. If anyone actually read this far through my terribly written ramble, you must have a good comprehension skills. I don’t know what I’m doing. I cried for 3 hours now, and I know I’m going to regret posting this when I get my mentality clearer, but I’m going to do it anyways.</p>
<p>Applying for boarding schools is a good idea. Have you talked to your parents about this? I know you said you live in a rural area, but are there any other schools nearby that you could go to? Do you have a particular hobby or interest that you’d like to pursue? Maybe you could find a job or internship that could go along with that. Maybe you could observe some of the other students in your classes and see if there’s anyone else who might possibly feel the same way you do. See if you have anything in common with anyone, even if it’s just the smallest thing. Good luck!</p>
<p>Didn’t boarding school decisions just come out? How did those go?</p>
<p>Look into Bard College at Simon’s Rock–you would apply as a sophomore and start there your junior year. </p>
<p>I would also recommend therapy to help you sort out some of these issues. It is one thing to not be very social, but another to feel so alone. It’s absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Talk to your pediatrician and he/she will be able to help.</p>
<p>Interesting conversations pop up everywhere when you don’t try to focus them on sociology or philosophy from the get-go. </p>
<p>Talk about parents, and in the course of conversation, sneak in some points from a sociological study you read about the effects of parenting styles. Listen for the response. Expand the conversation, with the challenge being that you have to keep it within the scope of interest of the individual. Let them lead you down a few tangents. It’s a fun game. In the end, you learn a lot about interesting people-- and everybody is interesting if you dig deeply enough-- you get some feedback on your ideas, and you may possibly find a few close friends. </p>
<p>From the responses you get, you can see who’s more interested in what you’re interested in. These’ll be the ones who take conversations down roads you like: the ones who dwell on the philosophy of parenting instead of the experience of being parented, for example. </p>
<p>These people will be the ones you come back to for more and more conversations. It’s easy to bond to them, because they likely feel as intellectually isolated as you do. Conversations get more interesting, and friendships get closer, as time goes on. Occasionally, you guys might even go bowling or pick up the same hobbies. </p>
<p>It’s a difficult game, but a rewarding, fun one. </p>
<p>I find it works well with girls, too, though in those types of relationships, there are a few extra steps along the way.</p>
<p>If you can’t go to a boarding school and public school isn’t working out, you could always ask your parents to see if you could do online school. You’ll still be lonely, but you won’t have to deal with the embarrassment of not having any friends or not having a partner at public school.</p>
<p>Are you still waiting to hear back from those boarding schools? In your situation, I think boarding school is a good place for you. And a 130 IQ isn’t exactly “normal.” Doesn’t mean you’re a genius but I’d say you are definitely above average. You have a shot at qualifying for Mensa (just saying).</p>
<p>Thank you so much everyone… I’m so happy that I finally expressed myself and you guys really showed me some very kind cares for me.
I applied 4 schools and got denied at 3 so far… I don’t know about the last one but pretty sure it’s either waitlist or denied. </p>
<p>I think the part of the problem is in myself, too. I am really uncomfortable at expressing myself and feels really vulnerable when I do. Maybe that’s why boarding schools rejected me… I kind of tried to hide myself as possible during the process.</p>
<p>OP are you international or from the US?</p>
<p>I think part of the problem is that you said you applied to boarding schools like Exeter. Exeter/Andover are basically the Harvard/Yale of boarding schools, so perhaps you could reapply next year to less selective schools if you don’t get into that last one (I’m rooting for you though!) </p>
<p>Again, please consider therapy. It will help you feel more comfortable with yourself and as a result, more comfortable with others. I second the online school option as well–perhaps that would give you more time to get involved in something else that you enjoy in your area.</p>