So sorry to hear. Take a deep breath. It’s early. Many struggle even through Thanksgiving or first semester but then have a great year.
But let’s look at what I perceived you to say - you’re likely at an elite or near elite LAC where most are full pay. Many take a high end, meets need school to mean diversity but often more than half the kids are full pay. So it can make it hard to keep up with the joneses. Often, not always, people gravitate to friend groups of similar genders, wealth status, race and religion.
Being somewhere that you are miserable isn’t a recipe for med or grad school. And the name of the school - W&L or Washington State - just as example names - is unlikely to matter whereas your gpa, test scores, and clinical opportunities will. While one may have advising or program advantages, they don’t help if your gpa is low and your interest is gone.
Public schools come in different sizes.
Let’s use Ohio as an example. You have massive Ohio State in the big city, large Ohio U and the mid/large Miami, both rural. But then you have Akron, Bowling Green, Kent, Youngstown State and more - various sizes, locations, maybe even costs.
So your state likely does too - and guess what, kids from all these go on to med school or to other health careers.
Additionally large schools have Honors Colleges to make some classes smaller. Or once you get into a major they could shrink. There are also living learning communities. You may not love your current dorm but you might if everyone was interested in healthcare and res life planned activities around it.
So a few things to think about - not including parental pressure if it’s there:
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What’s your budget ? Will a school offer merit if you transfer ?
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Might it be smarter to take a leave of absence or drop out -so you are applying again as a first year ? Check school by school -some may not consider you a first year having enrolled elsewhere. Basically, you need to hit budget.
In the meantime, talk to an RA and ask how to get involved. Or maybe make an appt at the counseling center.
Btw - large doesn’t mean no relations with profs. That’s up to you. Many go to large schools with large classes and end up at a profs house for dinner. You make the effort - you can have that.
I do think you need to look at budget - and maybe other schools that might be smaller. Many states have schools with competitive tuition for OOS students.
Hope that helps but step one, breathe, and talk to someone who may have ideas - the RA or counselor.
Hoping things improve or that you are able to create an affordable exit plan. You might lose this semester’s money but if you can start fresh elsewhere (you need to ask), that can save you in the long run.
A goal is the degree and a future that excites you - not a school name. Many, in my opinion, miss that.
Btw for your folks if they are name centric - I often show these. I was a patient at Vandy and looked at where did the residents go to college. Ok State, K State, Lipscomb, N Illinois, Murray State and more. Sure some go to big names but as many didn’t. So the name is of least importance - finding a place to excel is what matters.
You can look up residents and see where they went for undergrad at many top teaching hospitals.
Best of luck.