24yo mom needing to divorce abusive husband. Please help.

<p>Note: I’ve edited certain details to retain the spirit of the issue while also protecting my privacy.</p>

<p>Note 2: Yes, yes, I know this site is not legal advice, and I won’t take any of it as legal advice. I’d just like some pointers. :)</p>

<p>I am a sophomore in college (I got to college a bit late), which makes me terrified that I’m just going to be a poor single mom, but it’s finally become apparent to me that the unknown that I fear may well be better than what I’m experiencing. DH and I have been married four years but in the past year he became emotionally/psychologically abusive, calling me a bad name in front of our daughter and telling me he couldn’t stand me, and much more that I don’t feel like recounting. It has been so hard for me to recognize this as what it is because he used to treat me lovingly and actually still does so in the days between these outbursts.</p>

<p>I’d try to stick around and work it out, but he refuses therapy or counseling of any sort and insists that if I just kept my bedroom side table neater (it infuriates him to see all the clutter) or other similar things, he wouldn’t have to treat me like this.</p>

<p>The straw that broke the camel’s back was my recent hospital stay because I could barely breathe and I had severe tachycardia. He didn’t even visit me at all – just dropped off a bag of stuff while I was still in the emergency room. He also left our daughter at his mother’s house during this time – ok, makes sense for one night, but he did it the whole four days and apparently intended to do so indefinitely.</p>

<p>When I got home, I tried to talk about how scared I’d been and his only response was, “Me too. It would be so hard to raise [our daughter] alone.” I joked that he’d have to get a new wife right away, and he said, “That’s what I was thinking.”</p>

<p>So yesterday was the day after I got home, and he just sat in his chair at his computer all day. He works from home, but he’s between projects right now, so he was really just messing around on the Internet and watching movies. He let me do all of the physical activities involving our daughter and other things even though my left arm was extremely painful and hard to move because of an intense reaction to the pneumonia shot. I was also developing a mild fever, probably because of the flu shot.</p>

<p>I finally asked him why he wasn’t helping me, I’d just gotten home and I was in pain and I was traumatized. He said, “Hearing all the noise you two are making is driving me insane! I need some time without you complaining!” </p>

<p>Then he told me I should be overjoyed that I was out of the hospital and that I didn’t have a grip on reality if I was feeling traumatized by the whole thing. He called me a bad name as our 4yo little girl was crawling out of bed to come get me to come in and snuggle with her.</p>

<p>I am aiming to get us out within the next few weeks.</p>

<p>What I know I’ve got:</p>

<p>-a girl friend who is happy to have DD and me stay as long as we need until we find a place. (She herself has been homeless before and since then has been overwhelmingly kind towards anyone who needs help. I will contribute to costs.)</p>

<p>-A certain amount of money saved up, less than 10,000 dollars, but enough to keep us going for a little while.</p>

<p>-About 400 a month coming in aside from that.</p>

<p>-I know my mother will insist on helping with DD’s needs such as clothing and so forth.</p>

<p>My questions: </p>

<p>How do I find a good lawyer since I have so little money?</p>

<p>How do I help 4yo DD cope/how do I minimize the trauma?</p>

<p>DH’s dad is a big time lawyer with friends in the state’s supreme court and other high places, so I assume he knows how to find some d*** good divorce attorneys. What resources can I look into to find out how to avoid being steamrolled here?</p>

<p>I’ve thought of my in-laws as family for the last four years while DH and I were married. How do I approach them to explain this? It will seem like it’s pretty much out of nowhere to them.</p>

<p>Any other thoughts?</p>

<p>Is it possible that he wants out, too? Just asking.</p>

<p>mini, it would certainly make it easier for me if he does. I hope so. But in the past when I’ve suggested it, he’s become furious and accused me of not being loyal.</p>

<p>Ah, men. We can be so messed up! (women, too, but that’s not for me to say…)</p>

<p>This might sound off-the-wall, but your in-laws may have more insight into your H. than anyone else (especially, individually). I don’t know how close you feel to either of them. But I have heard of in-laws who have been part of family interventions, and/or alternatively, help couples make breaks when things are irreconcilable, but they still want good relations in the long term with their grandchildren. I don’t have any idea if you have ones like that, but…</p>

<p>You may not need a “good lawyer” unless you have something he wants.</p>

<p>If you “cope”, your daughter will probably be fine.</p>

<p>Mini, I believe my in-laws are very good people, but I’m just frightened that they’ll turn on me in favor of their baby boy and won’t want to hear anything I have to say after such a topic is brought up…</p>

<p>Shinkrap, I was worried he’d want to take our daughter. That would be the thing he wants. I have no intention to keep him from having time with her… I just don’t want him to have full custody.</p>

<p>Yes, but they will hear about it anyway, won’t they? So your fear may be justified, but the subject is unavoidable. Could you take ONE of them to lunch or something? (Don’t do both at the same time, would be my advice.) Of course, it will come out that you talked with one of them, but that won’t be so terrible either. Remember, they have a stake here too, at the very least in the happiness of their granddaughter, and the future of their relationship with her. Of course, if you are absolutely sure that, for you, it is finished, and there isn’t anything to be salvaged, then getting away as soon as possible is what you need to do. Quick is preferable, before things get nastier, and you and he say things you both wish you hadn’t.</p>

<p>As for you d., she feels the tension in your household now. Happy mom makes for happy kid. And four is a lot better (developmentally speaking) than 6-7, when they begin to project about their futures.</p>

<p>And you have your whole life ahead of you. It may feel like crap for awhile, but this too shall pass.</p>

<p>What city are you in? Look for a womens organization, theynoften have free or cheap but good legal advice. I have a friend who is using just such a service. There are ways to protect yourself and your child. I would tell no inlaws anything. My guess is first loyalty would be to idiot son. As for child, the trauma is being in a terrible house. If youndont know where to start, call a womens shelter they will have referrals for you. Yu are stronger than you know.</p>

<p>From what you’ve described, he doesn’t sound like he wants full custody, although it could take a few days for him to figure that out. Anyway,it would take something pretty crazy for him to get full custody.</p>

<p>I think you need to make sure you are physically safe before you deal with finding a lawyer. Your husband sounds like he is not far from hitting you; he’s gone about as far verbally as he can. </p>

<p>Be extremely careful and when you are ready to leave, do not give him warning.</p>

<p>Also, a man who dumps his child at his mother’s does not want to raise her. His interest would be in upsetting you. For that a lawyer will be helpful and seahorsesrock advice is good. Find a shelter or battered women’s helpline. And no do not involve your in laws their loyalty will be to their son.</p>

<p>Snowdog: </p>

<p>I won’t give him warning. He’s not going to know what f***ing hit him.</p>

<p>Sorry to be rude, but this infuriated, mama-bear part of me has just come out… (I only decided to leave him yesterday, but when I decide something, that’s it, that’s all, there’s nothing anyone can do.) </p>

<p>He’s made my life Hell for the past year, and I’ve loved him and been kind and careful and done so many sweet things for him. I’ve tried to be better in every way (including in bed…) and none of it works. Nothing. I’ve tried to validate him and be understanding and so forth and so on and whatever. I’ve repeatedly cleaned every inch of the house even while being in school. Nothing works at all.</p>

<p>He may not want full custody, but sometimes men will fight just to fight. And ifnhendoes get violent, absolutely call the police. There are several things you need to do tom protect yourself. But be smart. Don’t give him any clue what you have in mind. But first talk to someone.</p>

<p>You’re not rude OP, you’re angry, and that’s a healthy way to feel about what you’re dealing with. Be safe.</p>

<p>Agree–please be safe and do NOT talk to in-laws at this time. It’s much too dangerous. Do NOT give any warning before you leave either & do NOT go anywhere he might expect you to. Women’s shelters are at undisclosed locations for this reason. If he knows your kind-hearted friend, he may hunt you & D down there. Safety is very important as physical violence can follow the type of abuse you are currently suffering from. Do NOT leave phone numbers or materials from shelters anywhere where they can be found by him and do not tell D anything until you leave so she won’t have to hide anything or get confused. Your D will be fine as long as YOU are fine & adjust.</p>

<p>Good luck & please be very careful. Make your phone calls & contacts or whatever you’re going to do when you’re at school so he won’t overhear you.</p>

<p>What you’re describing is classic abuser behavior and I’m so glad you don’t have to be talked into leaving. Abusers only get worse with time, unless they voluntarily undergo longterm therapy. </p>

<p>PLEASE get a restraining order. When you leave, he’s going to get volatile.</p>

<p>Contact your local domestic violence organization for a lawyer referral. They’ll also have all kinds of other resources for you, including moral support.</p>

<p>I agree with HImom, don’t go to the home of a friend or relative. He’ll come looking for you. And don’t tell anyone exactly where you are; just tell them you’re in a safe place. </p>

<p>I don’t see it as your responsibility to break the news to your in-laws. He can spend some of his internet-surfing time to do that.</p>

<p>Set up a new email account for yourself. Change your phone number.</p>

<p>You’re not rude, you’re angry, which is exactly what a healthy person should be. Keep it going.</p>

<p>If you have the chance AND you can do so without risk, keep in touch with us.</p>

<p>By the way, be sure to log out of CC every single time. He knows enough about computers to find this thread if you stay logged in.</p>

<p>…delete cookies from your computer.
…change phone number
…don’t go anywhere where he could find you</p>

<p>Can you go back to your parents home? You mentioned that you are a student so that means he could find you and confront you on campus. I would really consider getting a protective order. Who will be with your daughter when you attend school? You need safety nets in place if you are continuing school. I have no idea how the law works but right now he is escalating and it sounds like he is capable of physical abuse. </p>

<p>How old is your husband? Is there alot of stress regarding money or other factors. He needs help because this is not going to improve and that is your problem because he will at some point see your daughter. A man who can abuse his wife will abuse his child. Just do what you need to do and let the rest unfold later. Take care of yourself and the little one.</p>

<p>Thank you everyone.</p>

<p>-I am only visiting this thread from my phone that is in my name.
-I will listen to you and go to a women’s shelter because now that I think of it I do NOT want to deal with him ranting outside my friend’s door or coming in and doing anything if we would open the door for him.
-I will tell my friend to prepare in case he does assume I am there.
-Husband is 29
-I have always figured he would never hurt me physically because he wouldn’t cross that line but now I see what you all are saying and am coming to the conclusion that he might well cross that line if I anger him enough. Sometimes when he is angry he balls up his fists and makes this weird snarly face… Don’t know if that’s really meaningful but maybe it is.
-I already planned to withdraw from all my classes for this semester.</p>

<p>Why do I need to change my phone number?</p>

<p>I WAS IN YOUR SHOES . . THE NEXT TIME COULD BE WORSE .In your heart ,you know this . I left ,packing up some basic things while a police officer watched . I was in a Women’s Shelter for awhile ,with my 2 year old son .Eventually we stayed at a vacant apt . a friend had . THE NEXT DAY ,EX SHOWED UP AT my moms house -it wasn’t pretty . I’m sure I would not be around today had I gone where I knew someone he knew . These guys are capable of bad things . I wouldn’t worry about a lawyer at this point ,but you and your child need to be in a safe place . I would also be careful about keeping your child safe -many parents run off with children ,whether they have custody or not . Your husband may have some great qualities ,but he needs help/therapy . I did eventually get divorced and re-married .I have 4 kids now .Life is good .</p>