<p>I just realized that I basically went through my whole high school year without one dependable close friend.</p>
<p>I have one girl who is very very nice..we go to the beach together etc, but she's a social person. she's friends with everyone. </p>
<p>another guy who i hang out with in school all the time, but i dont trust him o_O. im new to the school and he was first at the top of the school until i came. once he found out that my gpa, etc etc was higher than his he became friends with me. I saw things that he wrote on someone else profile back in the beginning of the school..in which he said "ohh she's nothing to worry about. im going to beat her." :/ i feel like he's in constant competition with me and thats the only reason he's my friend</p>
<p>the next girl is a friend of mine but she's such a people pleaser and hypocritical. the vegan who drinks cow milk o_O. and she also competes with me and gets obviously mad when i get a higher grade on an assignment than her. :( i try to be her friend but like she's always like "you're lucky you have everything..you're lucky you're this, you're that" :(</p>
<p><em>sigh</em> i want to make frriends, iwant to have close relationships but its so hard for me.
on top of that, i live in a community where the people are mostly the thug, "gangbanger" type. anyone else feel like this?</p>
<p>But yea I dont "hang out". I rarely go to the movies with friends. Over the weekend, I usually go to my grandmothers house or sleep. I dont talk on the phone with friends. Basically...outside of school, I dont speak to anyone my age o_O</p>