I just said something like that to my bff this morning. I have conflicts with my siblings that are heightened as our mom lies on her death bed, and ds2 wants to be there for her passing. I love him and want him to be here, but what I don’t want is his gentle reprimands of me, that I should continue to be the bigger one because my sister is divorced and has no friends and my brother is a functional alcoholic whose wife is bitter and lashes out at everyone. He thinks I am more equipped to deal with all them, to be the bigger person. But I am a PERSON first, one who is tired of putting up with their BS and shouldn’t always be the one who yields and overlooks. Just because someone is family doesn’t mean that they should be allowed to walk all over you. I do partly fault myself, because I have shielded them from most of the dysfunction as I didn’t want my relationships with my family to color theirs. And they, in fact, have great relationships with everyone. They absolutely are beloved. But I need ds2, specifically, to give me the grace he wants me to give everyone else.
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