Hi, College freshman here. Kinda entering a college life crisis over what I want vs what I “need.” To put it bluntly, I want to study stuff relating to my creativity particularly music and writing. I’ve always wanted to work in the music industry growing up, either by singing or more recently directing music soundtracks. I even thought about branching out to education or marketing since it “sounds safer.” But of course, I’ve been hit with several people calling it a “useless degree” and maybe try being a “social worker” or “diplomat” instead.
I thought about writing, particularly about creative writing and maybe entertainment journalism since I grew a very strong passion for writing and literature over the years. Even going so far as to writing my own stories, doing alot of worldbuilding, and analyzing all sorts of shows/comics for fun. I thought about becoming a writer or a showrunner in some entertainment media, or just writing out and publishing my own stories. Hell, I even thought about being a journalist for some entertainment media or an English educator since it seems like a safer career to be in. But like music I’ve also been hit with the whole “useless degree” speech and it’s getting on my nerves.
Right now I’m majoring in English and thinking of double majoring or at least minoring in Music but I’m kinda having anxiety right now from all the negativity over the years. I’m very strongly passionate about these things, and I chose to go to college cause I believed it was the only way to explore my passions as well as network with others. My high school only pushed us to go to community college but I thought it wasn’t for me since It doesn’t really help me with my majors and I was worried I’d get stuck. I kinda thought about exploring other majors but I realized STEM, Health, and Law just wasn’t for me, and I’m kinda iffy about studying business & marketing, and even more iffy about studying Hospitality & Tourism.
Right now I’ve been struggling trying to find scholarships since the past year I’ve been in a very, VERY, unhealthy mindset from stress and I just didn’t know how or if I’m doing the right things for scholarships. I honestly had no idea who to talk to about this since my high school was no help and navigating who to talk to about this in my college is frustrating. I’m most likely gonna take loans this year, but I just want some honest advice from people who know what they’re talking about.
My two biggest fears are to becoming a failure and working in a career I have no passion for, and I want to avoid it at all costs.
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