<p>@blossom </p>
<p>I have sought help from a professional psychologist/counselor, however I’ve only had one session thus far. It seems to have helped, but I worry a little bit that it might only just be the placebo effect at play. In the interim, I’ve honestly thought about changing my major once again to something I feel like I might like: something along the lines of computer programming and/or software engineering. I have taken one programming class previously and was less-than-satisfied with the presentation of the material as it seemed more like the teacher just didn’t care. But when I was growing up, I actually found an interest in computer programming and attempted to learn C++ when I was about 12 or 13. I didn’t have the mathematical background at that age to really understand some of the technical jargon, but I feel like I do now. The problem with my predicament is that Texas Tech won’t accept any of the programming classes from my community college because they’re not on the same level of rigor. I feel like I would enjoy computer programming, but the issues of finances and transferring in the spring arise most prominently. As I’ve found out, I can still keep my scholarship in the spring for math, but I’ve contacted some departments at Texas Tech and they claim that any scholarships available in the spring are only offered if anything is leftover.</p>
<p>I’m kind of wasting my life away at home, but I really don’t feel up to the task of really doing anything else. I suppose I have the most ideal conditions of taking a semester off, but for the most part I really haven’t done much. It feels like a decompressionary period. Before I was headed off to Texas Tech, I had a job but I quit it since I was going to be in Lubbock this fall. Now that things changed, I really haven’t looked for another job. My parents are kind of annoyed that I haven’t, but again mentally I don’t feel up to the task. That’s going to be counseling session number two.</p>
<p>I can’t remember if I mentioned it, but I am taking some classes at my community college this fall. But they’re online and they’re fluff courses. I wish spring would hurry up and get here. I’ve got a countdown for the days remaining and it’s just the most agonizing thing to look at because of how many days are left (100 days).</p>
<p>I wish I could fast-forward everything and make it next fall–that way, I got guaranteed chances for final aid from all departments. But what are ya gonna do?</p>