<p>I’m sort of an insecure person… but I am working on it I’m in this play about Cesar Chavez and my director is always telling me to commit to my character. See the fields, feel the ground, feel the pain… “pretend so much that it becomes a reality.” I’ve been trying to pretend on how to act but I just don’t feel like my character. I feel as if I am simply faking the actions. </p>
<p>I have been trying to let myself go, taking risks and such but I still don’t feel like I can get into my character’s head. And when I get into my character am I acting how the character would act, or how I would act if I was in that situation? One of the actors told me that I’m just thinking too much and that it’ll come. I’ve been in this play for about 3 months and in the first month one guy was telling us that “you’re gonna see the fields, you’re gonna feel the pain, you’re gonna know what it was like to be a farm worker.” Our show is about to open in 3 weeks and i’m still having trouble committing to my character. :(</p>
<p>I don’t want to give up on acting, because it helps with my confidence taking risks and such… but I’m sort of having a hard time being my character and having “fun” with it as how people would.</p>
<p>I don’t know if you can say that I “like” acting, I mean I just got into it during the summer. I find improv. fun, helps with confidence, people tell me that i have talent, and I feel like it’s the only real thing that I can actually do in life because everything else is boring. But I can say that there’s some reason, I still don’t know what it is, for why I always look forward to rehearsals every day. I am so excited for the show. I find some of the scenes fun. I am excited to learn. When our director gives us lectures… I enjoy those the most because he really knows his stuff!</p>
<p>I think also what it is is because my character is a protester. I don’t have any main parts just part of the ensemble. I have like 2 lines. I reckon it’s hard for me because protestors don’t have much lines in the play but are in most of the scenes, and so I am forced into relying on my body actions. I still don’t feel like I am my character… or maybe I am thinking too much, but how do I stop and jump into the moment of acting?</p>
<p>I felt like I tried everything… I swear. I even tried making a back story for my protester. Still had a hard time getting into THAT character that I came up with. D:</p>
<p>tips/exercises/critiques/anything please</p>