<p>So I just finished my junior year and it basically killed me - it took so much out of me. I am, like many of the people on CC, an overachiever.</p>
<p>Although summer is here, I realize (as I wait for my latest SAT II score) that I judge myself too much off of scores/grades, that I value the respect of my peers more than anything, so much that it is almost certainly unhealthy. I know summer will help me regain my confidence and mental health, but only temporarily.
I want to be in a good place not only in September but throughout the rest of my senior year. And when the time comes, I don't want college rejections from prestigious schools to affect me to the point of utter depression /despair. If I do get accepted into some ivy league college, I don't want to be secretly prideful or pretentious, as I know I will be if I keep up this awful attitude about success and prestigious colleges and intelligence.</p>
<p>So that brings me back to the original question: How do I stop judging myself based on how other people see me? How do I prevent this sinking feeling from getting a bad grade, but at the same time lessen the stupid pride and euphoria that I get from a great grade or a perfect score?</p>
<p>Any advice at all, comments, or even commiseration is welcome. Thanks !</p>