<p>…I’d literally ruin my life over them.
I can’t stand being made to look stupid or psycho by others. If one person says I’m stupid or insane, everyone else is going to think it’s okay and I’ll be treated as if I’m ■■■■■■■■ for as long as I have to see them. I learned this the hard way in middle school. I actually wish I was under 18 so I could beat up everyone who says such things and get away with it. I don’t have the wit or shrewdness to make people shut up or cry, so I have no choice but to kick their ass. Too bad for them that I have the social skills of a 12-year-old and I can’t teach them a lesson the subtle way.</p>
<p>If I get expelled. Oh well.</p>
<p>If I get fired from a job. Oh well.</p>
<p>If I go to jail. Oh well.</p>
<p>If I end up in a mental hospital. Oh well, it seemed like destiny anyway.</p>
<p>My life is already ruined in a sense anyway because I have nothing going for me. Give me at least one good reason not to think this way and I’ll change my mind.</p>
<p>i’m disappointed in cc. we used to be so nice and now we tell people who are having a hard time to “grow a pair”</p>
<p>this used to be a great place to get advice and now people who post their personal problems are often mocked or discouraged from posting. the old cc helped me get through a tough time last year, but i don’t think people here would do the same for me now</p>
<p>to the op…i know it’s hard being insulted by people, especially over things you’re sensitive about like intelligence or mental problems. but as you grow older you’ll feel better about yourself and those mean-spirited insults will hurt you less and less. or at least this is what happened to me. it just takes time. good luck and don’t get too down on yourself.</p>
<p>That’s redundant. I already did. I don’t care about attention. I just want a good reason why not to do what I’m thinking of. </p>
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<p>Um no. If you were treated like that in addition to be in and out of “special” programs and actually in a mental hospital at one point, and having crappy standardized test scores to prove everyone’s point it is an extra blow too much. Everyone has my problems? To my extent? LOOOOOOLLLLLLL</p>
<p>Ok in all honesty, whatever you do don’t do anything to make your life worse- like ending up sued or in jail.</p>
<p>Why wouldn’t you do what you’re thinking of?
-The people being mean aren’t doing it to hurt you this bad, and they are wrong of course, but don’t deserve to be beat up.</p>
<p>-Is Jail a deterrent enough? That would be much worse than anything you are experiencing verbally now. You become a number in Jail, and have no rights.</p>
<p>-By doing that you prove the people making fun of you right.</p>
<p>-Fired from a job? Throwing away your future is just as bad imo.</p>
<p>no one’s going to convince you with a reason and you know it. you just want attention and its pathetic. go do something with your life, posting on an internet forum isnt going to solve your problems. <best advice in the thread</p>
<p>situation: you beat them up (attempt to)
ending: you: life probably ruined (permanent record)
them: more ammunition to attack you with/remember you fondly as the college kid that was psycho
verdict: why would you do this? You’re only doing yourself harm.</p>
<p>having you tried finding a group of friends that share some common interests? I know I probably have the social skills of a 12 year old, more or less, and I have some good friends. Even if I’m not too socially inclined, I can still have fun playing random board games or some sort of sport. Not everything needs to involve the act of talking.</p>
<p>I’ve already found good reasons on this thread.</p>
<p>I’m already doing things with my life. Last week I took a test with to apply to a job at the census bureau. I went to the math center to understand math and physics concepts that I didn’t understand. I’m going to act in a skit on Madame Bovary in my Literature class next week as the narrator because my prof said I have a nice voice. I joined a few school clubs over the weeks and I go to the game room once in awhile to make friends and have fun.
I may not have an active and fun life yet but I’m getting close to it.
I’m not going to let you make me feel like I’m an attention whore without my consent. Go ahead and think I’m one for all I care.</p>
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<p>For some reason I lol’d. Not in a bad way. That song was so overplayed.</p>
<p>TA, I understand your pain because I am so much like you. No, I am not saying it in a patronizing manner, I say it because I honestly mean it. Growing up I also lacked the mental capacity to defend myself with witty insults or clever remarks, so everyday I had to endure humiliation after humiliation from my classmates. The sense of powerlessness was horrible: knowing that I couldn’t defend myself verbally and that if I defended myself physically I would most certainly be declared guilty, since I lacked the verbal abilities to defend my case and since I probably didn’t come across as being too normal or intelligent. Then one good day I decided to bite the bullet, accept that I have problems, and spill my heart out to a psychologist. To my great surprise, the psychologist treated me coldly and condescendingly, and her questions were of such an abrasive nature that at times I felt as if she were screening me to make sure I wasn’t a public safety hazard. The diagnosis? Depression. The explanation to my social and communicational problems? None. My meeting with that psychologist was perhaps one of the most traumatic events of my life. I am currently contemplating the possibility of paying another psychologist to help me cope with the psychological damage I suffered at the hands of the first psychologist. TA, I feel your pain. If you don’t me asking you, what was your diagnosis?</p>
<p>Very early years: Autism. Recently: Asperger’s Syndrome, OCD and Social Anxiety. A doctor at the hospital did mention that I was depressed, but I don’t know if it was necessary diagnosed.</p>
<p>Life isn’t easy, I know. I’m sorry I can’t help very much as I’m going through similar things. I’m sure there is good help out there and not every professional is like that psychologist. I hope you find someone who can help you and I don’t mean this to be condescending either as I genuinely mean it. I was thinking of going into the psychology field for reasons like this.</p>
<p>To be honest, I think the main reason I’m feeling this way is because I accidentally went three days without my medication. I rush out of the house to catch the bus and I don’t remember until I’m halfway there and it’s too late. :/</p>
<p>TA3021, more than one person I have met on the internet has suggested that I myself might have Asperger’s Syndrome, but I personally rule out Asperger’s in favor of a personality disorder, since I was almost normal when I was little. By the way, when you went to see the psychologist who treated you like a potential deranged criminal, did you mention your previous diagnoses?</p>
<p>^ If the AS is very high functioning, it could appear that way. I’m not a doctor, so I can’t really make a judgement.</p>
<p>I did mention the previous diagnoses. He actually thought I had social anxiety before it was diagnosed. When the cops took me to the hospital, they said that if they felt that I was a criminal they would have sent me to jail instead. It was very uncomfortable though.</p>
<p>So you innocently told the psychologist about the thoughts you were having, and he told you to remain seated on the couch while the cops arrived to take you to the mental hospital? I don’t know about you, but if that happened to me I would seriously consider the possibility of pursuing legal action, even if it means getting laughed out of court.</p>
<p>TA, did you know that many psychoactive drugs have serious rebound effects? Forgetting to take your medication for a few days can actually cause an awful chemical fluctuation and make you feel WORSE than you did to begin with. </p>
<p>Honestly, before you do anything drastic, get back on your medication for a week or so, and see how you feel.</p>
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