<p>^ I’m sorry. I guess I should be careful about what I post. My situation is unique, very unique and odds are nothing like this will happen to you. Don’t worry.</p>
<p>The cops were actually the campus police, if that makes you feel better.</p>
<p>People who feel insulted are pathetic. OP must be a LA major.</p>
<p>emotions? what’s that. pass the steroids please.</p>
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I’ve noticed you repeatedly bashing liberal arts majors - you’re either an idiot (what logic is there behind linking emotion and major) or joking. I’m guessing you’re joking, since according to your previous posts, you are a liberal arts major (unless you’ve changed from LA to something else and now feel the need to bash them to feel superior…which is just sad). </p>
<p>TA - You sound really irrational…Aspergers AND OCD? that’s gotta be rough. but if you seriously want to physically assault people for thinking you’re dumb, then maybe you need help…it sounds like you’re scared of seeing another psychologist, so I don’t know what to tell you.</p>
<p>TA3021, I understand that this experience must have been very difficult for you, but can you please explain exactly what happened before, when and after the campus police arrived to the psychologist’s office to escort you to the mental hospital? I mean, you told the psychologist “I am having these thoughts…” and at that moment the psychologist freaked out and told you that he was sending you to a mental hospital and that the campus police would arrive shortly? Or did he secretly call the campus police and the next thing you knew is they were waiting for you outside the psychologist’s office? Weren’t you even allowed to say a word on the matter? Please explain in detail.</p>
<p>"I’ve noticed you repeatedly bashing liberal arts majors - you’re either an idiot (what logic is there behind linking emotion and major) or joking. I’m guessing you’re joking, since according to your previous posts, you are a liberal arts major (unless you’ve changed from LA to something else and now feel the need to bash them to feel superior…which is just sad). "</p>
<p>I wasn’t the one who posted under this name originally. Either way, what I said still stands.</p>
<p>Ok well that makes sense then…still, what does the OP having aspergers/ocd and wanting to physically hurt other people have to do with the Liberal Arts? lol. And no, I don’t think s/he’s just sensitive, it sounds like the kid has bigger issues…for which seeing a therapist might be helpful, although i’m afraid to suggest it based on his last encounter. </p>
<p>or maybe seeing a therapist outside of your college would be a better idea, because that way they won’t overreact as much, I think. they’re probably trying to screen out the crazy bring-a-gun-to-school-assassin types which is why they put you in an institution…or maybe the therapist really believed you were a danger to yourself/others. and based on this post, I’m not surprised - you want to physically hurt people around you? for insulting you? sorry, that’s more than overreacting.</p>
<p>TA3021, I wholeheartedly admire you. On my side of the screen, I complain about the fribulous things in life and think I have it hard; however, here you are, goin’ through these things, still fightin’ through. Always keep your chin up =] don’t let anyone tell you you’re not good enough, not smart enough, not anything enough! And… you don’t have to compete with others when they attack you – it’s just them tryin’ to make themselves feel good by bringin’ you down.</p>
<p>"or maybe seeing a therapist outside of your college would be a better idea, because that way they won’t overreact as much, I think. they’re probably trying to screen out the crazy bring-a-gun-to-school-assassin types which is why they put you in an institution…or maybe the therapist really believed you were a danger to yourself/others. and based on this post, I’m not surprised - you want to physically hurt people around you? for insulting you? sorry, that’s more than overreacting. "</p>
<p>I disagree. One thing is being insulted one time, another very different thing is being insulted on a regular basis, often by the same people, who probably just want to see how much they can get away with before you explode. If you understood the extent to which people like us were emotionally tortured by our peers, unable to defend ourselves verbally because we lacked the verbal abilities to do so, unable to request help from an authority figure because we weren’t taken seriously, perhaps you would understand why TA has contemplated the option of defending himself physically. I never defended myself in any way, verbally (because I lacked the ability) or physically (because I chose to err on the side of “wisdom”), and today I enjoy the benefits of almost daily intrusive memories of humiliations I have been through. I don’t condone violence, but I also don’t condone emotional abuse of any kind. In TA’s case I would be the last to point a finger at him.</p>
<p>How are we to know if this person is truly being insulted by other people or if this person is interpreting the actions/words of others incorrectly? Is there a possibility that this person is “listening to voices in his/her head” and it is these imaginary voices that are tossing out imaginary insults? Does the OP have a persecution complex of some sort? No one on CC is capable of analyzing and diagnosing the psychological health of this person. The only thing we can do is advise the OP to seriously consider intensive therapy. Do you people on this thread seriously believe that the counselor requested campus security to escort the OP to the hospital for no reason at all? Obviously, there were (are) signs that the OP had strong thoughts on doing harm to others or himself/herself and that is why the therapist felt that the OP needed to be escorted to and evaluated in a hospital setting. Based on the strange and continued themes on most of the OP threads on CC, intervention is needed. I suggest to the OP that if these thoughts of persecution, violence and revenge, and worthlessness continue to fill your mind and consume the majority of your daily thoughts, walk into the nearest Hospital Emergency Room and tell them that you are in need of emergency psychological care.</p>
<p>If you are merely a ■■■■■, go away and get a life.</p>
<p>Correction to the previous post: tried to go back and correct the above post but I must have been “timed out” and wasn’t able. I meant “paranoid personality” rather than “persecution complex”. The OP needs to get the answers he/she is seeking but should rely on qualified medical doctors rather than anonymous posters. [Paranoid</a> Personality Disorder PPD: Overview of Diagnosis, Prevalence and Treatment of Clinical Paranoia](<a href=“http://personalitydisorders.suite101.com/article.cfm/paranoid_personality_disorder]Paranoid”>http://personalitydisorders.suite101.com/article.cfm/paranoid_personality_disorder)</p>
<p>No one on this thread, including myself, can give you the answers that you need. Get professional help for a complete psychological evaluation, diagnosis, and treatment.</p>
<p>You guys are ****ing annoying. I am glad CC is turning into a more brutally honest place.</p>
<p>I’m not a ■■■■■. I don’t know why everyone is so unsure of my gender, I’m a girl and I’ve never said otherwise.
If someone does not want to read these kind of posts they can simply just not read them, it’s not that hard to put people on ignore.
I’m not paranoid, I have really been treated like this. Like that time when I didn’t understand why these girls at the library were laughing at me until one finally said it was because they thought I was ■■■■■■■■. Or the time when someone called me a psycho when I kept insisting that they apologize for shoving me. Or that other time when someone said the only reason a coach let me on the team was because I was half-■■■■■■■■ and he felt sorry for me. It’s not happening as much lately, but I am just upset that I have proved these people right.
Sorry that I have to annoy people here. I have no one to talk to in real life. My parents are sick of dealing with this crap and they cannot afford to pay for anymore services. I will go away. Whatever happens, happens. If anything ever happens to me, that’s harsh reality and I will have to deal with it and leave everyone alone. End of story.</p>
<p>Try going to the college health services/counseling center. If you’re not happy with one counselor, ask for another. The cost at the school clinic should be $0 or a nominal fee like $10.00. If they feel they can’t handle your case, they will refer you to someone who can or you can request a referral to an outside source. As I mentioned earlier, in an emergency, you can walk into any hospital emergency room and inform the triage nurse that you need emergency psychiatric care. I doubt they will turn you away.</p>
<p>It’s even worst when adults use insults against teenagers. The only people that have insulted my intelligence was adults. I figured that middle age individuals would have rose above their child’s pejorative nature but now I believe that child bullies are really a product of adult bullies.</p>
<p>I generally don’t get harassed much by my peers except for some girls at work that choose to be immature and blow up at my for “taking their customer.” I mostly just shrug this off because they are in the wrong and are acting very immature.</p>
<p>I know what it’s like to be considered stupid. Every adult that I meet considers me to be below average for my age, even school officials that should know the damage done on a teens self esteem. You’re lucky that you’re only criticized by your peers and not your superiors. Most people our age (assuming you are in your early 20’s) are pretty immature and make rude comments simply for the fact of social superiority. I don’t have the communication skills to stand up for myself either so I just ignore it or tell them to simply leave me alone.</p>
<p>What makes people think that you’re stupid and ■■■■■■■■? Maybe if you simply change your behavior they may be inept to criticizing you. Making yourself an easy target is hard so it’s best to take actions to avoid it.</p>
<p>^ If I knew exactly what it was, I would have stopped it a long time ago. I think it was because in middle school people found out that I used to go to a Special Ed. school and I was in the special classes for awhile before they sent me to mainstream. Therefore, whenever I did or said something less than intelligent it was because I am a “■■■■■■”. I have a feeling that if it wasn’t for my history and my strange voice they would have overlooked it.
I think it’s also because I act unsure of even the simplest decisions or questions because of my anxiety of what others would think. I’m not all that aware of my surroundings and I have to actually try really hard to socialize. The fact that I have to actually try makes me look dim.</p>
<p>“nysmile”, the following reply is for you.</p>
<p>“How are we to know if this person is truly being insulted by other people or if this person is interpreting the actions/words of others incorrectly?”</p>
<p>I believe she is telling the truth. Read on…</p>
<p>“Is there a possibility that this person is “listening to voices in his/her head” and it is these imaginary voices that are tossing out imaginary insults?”</p>
<p>Imagine that a woman gets raped. She is, naturally, emotionally disturbed. She talks to a counsellor, and the counsellor denies that the woman was raped, because the fact that she is emotionally disturbed suggests that something is wrong with her. “It is possible that she dreamed up the whole story about getting raped,” the counsellor reasons. Thanks to the counsellor’s contemptuos treatment, the woman’s emotional problems are exacerbated and she suffers unnecessarily. What a callous jerk that counsellor is!</p>
<p>Now consider TA’s case. She is not the type of person that people consider “normal”. If she is telling the truth, and we have no reason to believe she isn’t, she is autistic. By her own admission, she was diagnosed with Autism during her very early years and recently with Asperger’s Syndrome (a mild form of high-functioning autism). Now, if you know anything about Autism and Asperger’s syndrome, you know that they are serious developmental conditions that severely affect a person’s social and communicational abilities: it cripples them socially. It doesn’t take a huge leap of the imagination and one does not need to be overly credulous, then, to believe her claims that she has been treated several times like a “psycho” or a ■■■■■■. Unfortunately, that’s the way people on the autistic spectrum tend to come across, and young people, unfortunately, can often be extremely cruel to their peers.</p>
<p>In regards to your suggestion that maybe all the insults she has been through were hallucinations, Aspeger’s is not a psychotic condition, it’s not even a mental illness, and it does not cause people to hallucinate. Neither does OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder), depression or social phobia. Given her official diagnosis, it’s a lot more likely that she presents herself and acts in a socially unacceptable manner and that’s why she has endured so many humiliations at the hands of her peers.</p>
<p>Your suggestion that perhaps “it’s all in her head” is extremely insulting not only to TA but also to all people on the autistic spectrum. You owe them an apology.</p>
<p>“Does the OP have a persecution complex of some sort?”</p>
<p>It’s unlikely. The case she has presented is consistent with those typically presented by people with Asperger’s.</p>
<p>“The only thing we can do is advise the OP to seriously consider intensive therapy.”</p>
<p>There is no cure for Asperger’s. It’s not even an illness. It’s a condition people who have it have to live with the rest of their lives. The only therapy she would benefit from is one that exclusively focuses on helping her find effective ways to cope with the humiliations she endures on a regular basis.</p>
<p>“Do you people on this thread seriously believe that the counselor requested campus security to escort the OP to the hospital for no reason at all?”</p>
<p>If you paid any attention to TA’s posts, she never said that she was escorted to the mental hospital for no reason at all. My understanding is that TA made a thoughtless comment that got blown out of proportions and the psychologist, in his/her paranoia, in order to play it safe and not risk losing his/her license, sent her straight to the mental hospital, oblivious/uncaring of the amount of psychological trauma that his/her sending her to the hospital would cause her. Stories of people with Asperger’s who were misjudged and misdiagnosed by mental health professionals abound. Look it up on google.</p>
<p>“Obviously, there were (are) signs that the OP had strong thoughts on doing harm to others or himself/herself and that is why the therapist felt that the OP needed to be escorted to and evaluated in a hospital setting.”</p>
<p>You are overlooking the main problem here: the amount of psychological pain she endures at the hands of her tormentors and her inability to put an end to the abuse. </p>
<p>“Based on the strange and continued themes on most of the OP threads on CC, intervention is needed.”</p>
<p>If you are sick and tired of TA’s threads don’t read them, but don’t make her out to be a psychopath.</p>
<p>“I suggest to the OP that if these thoughts of persecution, violence and revenge, and worthlessness continue to fill your mind and consume the majority of your daily thoughts, walk into the nearest Hospital Emergency Room and tell them that you are in need of emergency psychological care.”</p>
<p>All she has to do is tell the people in the ER that the only reason she is there is because a random stranger on the internet, who does not understand Asperger’s Syndrome, told her to go there. The people in the ER are gonna laugh so hard…</p>
<p>“Correction to the previous post: tried to go back and correct the above post but I must have been “timed out” and wasn’t able. I meant “paranoid personality” rather than “persecution complex”. The OP needs to get the answers he/she is seeking but should rely on qualified medical doctors rather than anonymous posters. Paranoid Personality Disorder PPD: Overview of Diagnosis, Prevalence and Treatment of Clinical Paranoia”</p>
<p>She has a form of autism called Asperger’s Syndrome. It’s not uncommon (in fact, it’s rather common) for people with that condition to be pestered and harassed.</p>
<p>"No one on this thread, including myself, can give you the answers that you need. Get professional help for a complete psychological evaluation, diagnosis, and treatment. "</p>
<p>She already did. Got diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome.</p>
<p>I agree with Plattsburghloser-- no one makes you feel anything, YOU choose to feel and react however you want to. I get called a loser? So what, I don’t mind people I turn the joke on them. I laugh it off, I do what I have to do. After all, they don’t know me profoundly enough to form a valid opinion about me. So, my reason would be–do it for yourself. It is far easier to blow up, than to listen to empty criticism. I get called a nerd sometimes, and you know what? I’m proud of it. Do you know what the word geek mean? It literally means, a freak who bites the head off of live chickens. I get called a geek, and people are so ignorant they don’t know the true meaning of the word. YOU should be flattered people pay attention to you and call you names. Positive or negative-- attention is attention. Get ahold of yourself, for your own sanity. If you end up in jail, expelled, etc THEY will have won. You will have lost all power, and self-control. Don’t give people that kind of power over you.</p>
<p>I know someone with Asperger’s Syndrome and she is nothing like the OP, which means that there’s a possibility that the OP suffers from problems in addition to her Asperger’s. The Asperger’s person I know has friends, a boyfriend, and is a good student in college - not all people with Asperger’s are going through the same things as the OP.</p>
<p>People with Asperger’s have problems with social interaction and often can’t relate to their peers. The OP might not be aware of how she comes off, or why people label her as “■■■■■■■■”, but obviously there’s a reason people are being so mean and bullying her, which she’s probably not even aware of. She can’t control her Asperger’s or being “different” and others will probably pick up on these differences - but she CAN control how she reacts to them. The reason I suggested the OP get some therapy is because she sounds like a ticking bomb…go back and read the first post. Her anger and frustration is building up to the point where she wants to physically assault someone, maybe more.</p>
<p>I appreciate your post pmvd, but nowadays I don’t get treated rudely at a regular basis because nobody has any time to notice or care in college. However, I have been in jobs where co-workers and customers alike were rude because they were impatient with me. I don’t think I was mean or lazy, so I don’t think I deserved it. If people are around me for a certain length of time and the have to interact with me, problems arise. In college where my classmates only see me three hours a week, two days a week and everyone is concentrating in class there are no problems.
Sorry if I appeared to exaggerate everything.</p>
<p>To everyone else: I don’t want to kill anyone. I don’t have any grandoise plans of revenge. I just want to be a normal person and put my past behind me.</p>