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<p>Those people have the same problems or worse. If they’re not normal themselves, how are they going to teach me anything? People are acting as if I brought this entire thing on myself and now I want sympathy. That’s ridiculous.</p>
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<p>lol, it’s kind of sad and pathetic watching you try so hard to convince yourself that you’re not a loser.</p>
<p>I guess I am, but I will change. That’s what I’m trying to do. If I am, I am. With the rate I’m going right now in my life, I will no longer be a loser if I really was one to begin with. What is your point anyway? If you’re just here to call me a loser, get a life. I can’t believe you have nothing better to do. You’re pathetic because this makes you feel better about yourself.</p>
<p>its painfully ironic that you’re telling me to get a life. :D</p>
<p>“you can’t WIN by ARGUING. Stop and smell the coffee”</p>
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<p>I’m not sure what the age cut-off is for this program but you may want to look it over and possibly consider applying for admission into the program. It’s on the New York Institute of Technology Campus in Central Islip. It is an amazing program and allows the kids who are academically capable(such as yourself and many of the other kids that are all ready in the program) to attend classes at a nearby SUNY. The beauty of the program is that you get the opportunity to live away from home. You get the services you need specific to your diagnosis. These students are succeeding in ways that they never would have had they stayed at home with their parents. Here, they socialize, go on weekend trips, pick and choose clubs to be involved in, have parties and dances, hang out in the lounge or in the dorms with their friends, attend college classes, learn life skills like how to manage public transportation into and around NYC, learn to drive, intern, work part-time, learn interviewing techniques, and take advantage of the numerous opportunities offered. Counseling is included–both group and individual. There is an RA to help with any questions. This program is not cheap–it’s costs around $42,000/yr (similar to a private college cost). If money is no object, it may be something to seriously consider. I’ve seen kids with Asperger’s blossom in this program. The lower academic students are placed in one program and the college students are placed in another. This program will to teach you the skills that you need and the answers to the questions that you keep asking on CC. You can’t learn these skills from people on CC. A program like the one in the link is run by professionals who know exactly what needs to be taught to students in your position.</p>
<p>This will be my last post on this thread for a while.</p>
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<p>At least I’m trying to get a life. What are you doing? Stop pretending you understand things you know nothing about. You just look immature and dumb. It doesn’t matter who wins this argument because if I’m different in a positive way a year from now, you lose. If I have a life of a normal person in their early twenties a year from now, all you jerks lose.
I should put a reminder on my cell phone for exactly a year later to make an update on CC, as I’m going to probably forget since I’m too busy HAVING A LIFE. :D</p>
<p>You jerks can waste your energy trying to put me down. I’m no longer replying to any of you.</p>
<p>Thank you nutridame.</p>
<p>TA3021, I will repeat a few questions I asked you back in page 2, which you did not answer.</p>
<p>"I understand that this experience must have been very difficult for you, but can you please explain exactly what happened before, when and after the campus police arrived to the psychologist’s office to escort you to the mental hospital? I mean, you told the psychologist “I am having these thoughts…” and at that moment the psychologist freaked out and told you that he was sending you to a mental hospital and that the campus police would arrive shortly? Or did he secretly call the campus police and the next thing you knew is they were waiting for you outside the psychologist’s office? Weren’t you even allowed to say a word on the matter? Please explain in detail. "</p>
<p>^ Don’t worry, pmvd. The odds the same will happen to you is rare. I shouldn’t have mentioned it to begin with. He didn’t tell me the campus police would show up, they just did. I actually sent him an e-mail explain it before I showed up. They were in front of his office. I didn’t know who they were until he explained as they weren’t wearing uniforms. I think he had enough to to plan everything because of the e-mail.
The only way I would have had any say is if I was 100% sure that no one would get harmed. Since I was so scared and indecisive, I ended up there as I was thought that they were the only people who could help me. I felt tricked. I thought a doctor was just going to talk to me for about 30 minutes, I would get a referral and I would go home. Instead I ended up there for six hours where doctors drew my blood and gave me an entire checkup.
If you have more questions, just PM me.</p>
<p>I never knew people could be so human…</p>
<p>^ Huh?</p>
<p>All I did was rant. As someone said before, this place is not going to really help me. If anyone wants to contribute they can, I’m just not wasting my time replying to jerks anymore.</p>
<p>I was going to write this in my journal, but I am going to write this here because it might benefit someone who is going similar problems 
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<p>Forgive me for my rant on the first page, it was just a result of a chemical imbalance gone haywire. Nobody is going to get hurt as I’ve realized how petty those insults are and I’m too small to be of any real threat to anyone anyway. Fighting is unladylike and I don’t want to bruise and scratch up my pretty face. 
Basically, no one’s gonna get hit unless they hit first lol.</p>
<p>Here are the real meanings of those insults:</p>
<p>Stupid: Stupid is such a subjective term that it should only mean something to the person who decided that someone or something is “not smart” Stupid is such an empty insult that it means as much as the wasted breath of the person that said it to you. Stupid is just an opinion. Whether you care about that opinion or not is up to you.</p>
<p>■■■■■■■■: Anyone who is serious about studying psychology or education should know that ■■■■■■ is a politically incorrect word for a mentally challenged person. Therefore a ■■■■■■ is strictly defined as a person with an IQ under 70. Anyone who uses this word out of context is as immature as those who repeatedly say “That’s so gay” and “Sucks”. Therefore such people are not worth fretting over and in my opinion are stupid.
BTW, I don’t care if I’m ever considered the village ■■■■■■ again. Watching people assume that looks funny now that I think about it.</p>
<p>Insane: This is mostly a legal term for someone who cannot distinguish right or wrong because of psychosis therefore cannot be convicted of a crime and a slang term. Who cares? See the definition for stupid for further explanation.</p>
<p>Psycho: My psychiatrist said that a psychopath is someone who has no remorse. Anyone who knows me very well knows that this is far from the truth. This word is often taken out of context and no one over the age of sixteen who uses this insult in a rude manner should be taken seriously. Ever. When someone calls you this, laugh and pity them for their immaturity.</p>
<p>This goes for the words’ variations, synonyms and implications as well. What did I leave out? Spaz? The crude word that has it’s origins from being a derogatory word for someone with Cerebral Palsy? My point is that you should not worry about such words and move on with your life. Do not be chained by your past experiences and project self-confidence. You can even have fun with such words! I’ve wanted to say, “Did your mother ever tell you not to mess with an insane people?” with a calm, collected look like a silent cold blooded killer. LOL</p>
<p>Remember, when life feel like it’s weighing you down, think of this passage from Camus’ The Stranger when Mersault is in jail : “Mother used to say that however miserable one is, there’s always something to be thankful for. And each morning, when the sky brightened and light began to flood my cell, I agreed with her.” </p>
<p>I don’t know how I could rationalize myself out of my issues without my passion for humanities and psychology. When one delves into their passion, great and unexpected things come out of it. I’m not going to post here as often as there is a bright, big world out there.</p>
<p>I don’t know how to conclude this…so yeah. :)</p>
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<p>That’s what I really meant. Sorry, I practically had no sleep since my terrible cold kept me up all night. If nothing I wrote made much sense, it’s because I’ve been up for almost 24 hours LOL.</p>
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<p>suck my balls you gay ■■■■■■.</p>
<p>Roflcopters! I’m smiling as I type this. Thanks making me laugh in spite of having a terrible cold and having practically no sleep last night. I seriously and genuinely mean it. It’s probably because I can’t imagine how it literally applies to me, lol.</p>
<p>people insult you by calling you dumb?</p>
<p>go to college work hard for the degree. prove them wrong. have the last laugh.</p>
<p>People who are rude or insulting are generally frustrated with their own lives. It’s not fair that you should be their target or that they should affect your self esteem; unfortunately there will always be people like this, just as there are people willing to help. The responses you are getting here are probably representative of those you get in the real world; some kind, some helpful, some rude. Remove yourself when possible from interaction with those who make you feel bad. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you to keep trying but don’t give up; keep searching for the right help, the right people. It will get easier.</p>
<p>Thank you, natmicstef. You have an interesting perspective. The Internet may not be the real world, the people who participate represent it. Anonymity on the Internet shows how people truly are and I will be prepared for such reactions in the real world too.
I will keep working hard for a better life. Thank you again.</p>