hi, so i’m at a pretty decent school right now but i hate it here. i don’t feel lonely or anything and i have friends, but i just hate the culture and location here. there’s literally nothing to do here, so the only thing you can really do is party. i’m a huge introvert, and while i do like to party occasionally, it’s not something i see myself doing regularly. i also just don’t really feel comfortable here. i’m from a pretty asian populated place, so i’m incredibly homesick. i miss asian foods and people, and i get incredibly homesick.
for context, i’m from northern nj and i would go up to nyc a ton and really loved spending time in the city. i applied to transfer to a few schools last semester, but got rejected from all of them. i was really disappointed, and i had zero motivation to study or do anything. i’ve gotten the lowest grades i’ve ever had, and ended my freshman year with a 2.48 gpa.
this feeling has carried over to this semester, and my grades are still pretty abysmal. i don’t know why, but i’ve just had ZERO motivation to work hard. i’m realizing the trouble i’m in now, so i’m trying to study for these last couple of midterms i have and the finals to hopefully recover.
my question is: is it too late to recover and transfer? i’m so lost. i’m a computer engineering student that basically has no real projects and only in a few clubs as a minor member. i only applied to this school because my parents told me to during high school, and it was the best school i got into. i feel pressured to stay here because of my parents, i wish i said something about my feelings towards this school earlier. i wish i just worked a little big harder in high school so i could go to school in the city or even near home.
do i just have to thug it out for the rest of my college career and stay here? my school is pretty decent and i feel like i’m wasting my time and resources, but i’m just so miserable here.
any advice is appreciated, even if it’s brutally honest.