<p>Dear CC,</p>
<p>Freshman year: i should have been more active with clubs. I did not join ANY AT ALL.
I should of been less lazy; I was a total idiot._. not being able to maintain a 1.0 in FRESHMAN year.
I didn’t know that GPA accumulates through the whole high school year.</p>
<p>Sophomore year: I will definitely try my best, but I think my chances reduced tremendously for competing with other students for the community colleges.</p>
<p>I really have no motive or strive anymore._. I don’t think there’s anymore point in going to school anymore not being able to live up to my parents’ expectations. I, myself, don’t really know what to do. What kind of career I want? Instead my parents make all the choices for me and they try to make the decisions for me(mexicans). Railroad workers, mechanics~</p>
<p>I will try to do the fullest knowing I won’t be able to reach as far as others. I really let my parents down(dishonor the family . .). However, I don’t wanna end up a useless bum that freeloads off of my parents.</p>
<p>Has anyone in the community ever felt like this? or am i the only one . . ._.</p>