I feel guilty. I got really low score on ACT and I lied to my friends that I got 34. Everyone trusts that I got 34.
What should I do? I can’t focus on studying because of a feeling guilty and fear. I am studying hard to get score near 34… but it seems like impossible score. I feel very pressured.
I could not study ACT because of depression until senior year. Now im studying very dilligently… will I be ok If I get 34? I will try really hard.
You will be OK, but if I were you I’d think about what prompted me to lie.
Nobody needs to know your score, other than your parents or guardians and the colleges where you are applying. Do you have problems setting boundaries with your friends? If that’s the case, it’s great to read about boundaries and start working on that area of your life.
Was the lie out of pride? That’s something you can work on too.
Healthy guilt is a sign that we need a course correction.
It’s a good sign that you feel badly about it. Don’t beat yourself up - just work on the real issues.
If this continues to worry you, then I would seek help from a trusted adult or counselor.
I don’t have confidence in myself. I think I do not have any confidence or pride in myself because I was psychologically abused by my mom.
And a friend I really hate asked my ACT score. And I could not keep me from lying. Now the friend told others that I got 34. Everyone envies me, but my score isnt even close to 34. I feel like people will make fun out of me when all college decesions come out…
I still have chances to get high school, but I really feel pressured and guilty. I think my depression affects my feeling.
Seek qualified help for your depression and the issues with your mom - it will serve you well in the short and long term.
A friend that you “really hate” is not a friend. Non-friends are not entitled to information about your life. Even friends are not entitled to that stuff; you should feel safe within the friendship and want to share.
Plenty of people with high ACT scores do not get into top colleges. You could actually score a 34 and not get a dazzling acceptance (depends on your definition of what an impressive college is).
If I were you I’d get help for depression, work on boundary skills, and go on about my business applying to college without any further explanation to others. A myriad of factors go into college applications, acceptances, and decisions.
You could make the decision to own up to the misinformation that is now out there, depending on the situation. But don’t torture yourself.
Are you seeing a mental health professional about your depression and abuse? If not, you definatley should. I think it’s exasperating, if not partly causing, your problems. I think you know this too. I know it’s tough, I have mental health issues myself, but there are people out there that can help.
^^yes, please seek help.