hi, so i’m currently a sophomore in college.
when i applied to college in high school, i wasn’t able to get into any of the schools i really wanted to go to, so i was left with just a few options. my parents really liked this small college in the middle of ■■■■■■■ nowhere + it was cheaper than my other options. my biggest regret is that i let my parents really influence my decision in committing. this school is somewhat respected and highly ranked, and my parents really liked it. i suggested my state school, because in the back of my head that was where i really wanted to go, but my parents told me that i was too smart to go to my state school, and advised against it.
i was a pretty competitive student in high school, like my gpa was high and i had a 1500+ sat score and all that. i was competitive enough to get waitlisted from a few ivies and get into a few targets, so i guess they thought i was too good for my state school???
so reluctantly, i committed to the school my parents favored, thinking it would be fine. fast forward to now, i’m the most depressed i’ve ever been. my first semester was fine, but it honestly all just went downhill from there. i lost pretty much all motivation to study and my grades just kept getting worse. i ended my third semester with a 1.9 gpa, and i had just told my parents how i felt about my school and the state of my mental health this past winter break. i told them that i would be applying to my state school, which was where i wanted to go in the first place. i applied, but already pretty much knew that i’d get rejected with my horrible gpa.
i just received an email that i was rejected, and now i really don’t know what to do. i don’t know what’s going to happen to me if i stay here. i hate feeling this way and i just want to leave this place. i’m trying to work hard this semester, but even then i feel like it’s too late. my gpa won’t let me transfer to anywhere, and i really really don’t want to go to community college, but i don’t know what other options i have.
do i just thug it out and finish the degree here? any advice would help. sorry in advance if this is hard to follow, i just feel really frustrated and emotionally unstable right now. i’m so angry at myself that i let my parents basically make the decision of where i’d spend the next four years of my life, and even angrier that i just couldn’t get it together and finish with a decent gpa.