<p>I occasionally have bouts of inexplicable sadness. I feel sad for many reasons. One, I want to go to college now. I want to meet new people. I’m bored of everyone I know. </p>
<p>Second, I often long for companionship that no one currently can provide. I just want to be truthful and honest and personal with a girl. Ahh, perhaps it’s the hormones talking again. But whatever. I just want someone that I can confide in, someone that understands all my idiosyncrasies. That would be perfect. </p>
<p>I was in a relationship some time ago, but it just didn’t feel genuine. Every time I met her, it felt as if I was taking on some kind of pretense. It wasn’t satisfying. I long for someone that can understand me - someone I can confide in - someone of the opposite gender. </p>
<p>Now, I have resorted to stalking </p>
<p>Sigh. It’s 12 PM. I perhaps should go to sleep. And if you are having trouble imagining how I feel, try watching the following Hamlet soliloquy. Focus on the background music, and also listen to Branagh’s artful rendition of Shakespeare’s immortal words. That is how I feel. Very melancholy. If you have Spotify, the song is “What a piece of work is man” by “Orchestra” from the “Hamlet Soundtrack.” The song really resonates with how I feel right now. </p>
<p>Lol, I’m in the same boat as you. I have also resorted to ridiculous methods of resolving this without hallucinogenics. What grade are you in? I’m still stuck in Junior year and on the verge of having a mental collapse.</p>
<p>I hope all of this ends when senior summer break comes along.</p>
<p>The junior year slump, I think the cycle goes like this: naive high schooler -> visit colleges -> realize they are awesome -> wonder how much happier you will be in college -> want to go to college NOW -> become depressed junior because you have 2ish years to go. Everyone goes through it, I’m in the middle of the slump now too. I can’t really think of any way to make the grind to graduation easier. I guess you just gotta endure it, but I’m open to suggestions.</p>
<p>If you’re havin girl problems, I feel bad for you son. I got 99 problems but a b@#ch ain’t one.</p>
<p>Same problem applies for me except you can take out the “visit colleges” part out for me. The rest still stays true :(</p>
<p>dfree, could it be a possibility that nearly all juniors are having these problems yet pretend that they’re doing fine? Life is really ironic if so…</p>
<p>Yeah, I’m having major girl problems. I’ve already known everyone at my school for like the past 5 years, and we’ve pretty much segregated ourselves into our own cliques. </p>
<p>I just want to escape so badly and meet some nice girl at college. </p>
<p>It has gotten so bad that I’ve resorted to stalking certain celebrities on the internet, wondering what their true names are, and where they live, and oh, if only they could meet me …</p>
<p>collegegw, I don’t think all juniors go through it, but many probably do. I would imagine that juniors who are not the happiest because they try hard in high school, are not in the best social situations, or have overbearing parents among other reasons would experience this more than others. People who are more content in high school probably don’t wish to go to college as much, because they are happy where they are. This is somewhat of a theory though, don’t take it all as truth.</p>
<p>DW iceqube. You probably already know this, but you’re not depressed. </p>
<p>Everyone goes through things like this. </p>
<p>Imo, just be yourself. Just let everyone see the real you. Say what you feel like saying and do what you feel like doing. That will break the false pretext senses that you’re getting when you talk with girls, imo.</p>
<p>When I talk casually with girls (on fb and whatnot), I’ll randomly say my cat says hello or something crazy. Why? Eh, I just felt like saying a crazy thing. </p>
<p>I’d youtube “Simple Pickup.” They are absolutely amazing. They employ humorous memes, crazy get ups and a lot more, and still pick up girls. </p>
<p>If you need someone to talk to, who may be like yourself, you can PM me and friend request me on FB, if you have one. (not tryna’ be creepy, or anything).</p>
<p>@Iceqube, sorry about that, couldn’t help myself. I hate cliques, I wonder if there’s a high school without them. I suggest that you try aiming outside of your grade in terms of girls. I find that the cliques don’t apply as much from one grade to another. My social group (not gonna call it a clique) has started hanging out with sophomore girls. While we can still talk with girls in our grade, talking with girls in the grade below is easier because the cliques are less structured from grade to grade (if any of that makes sense…).</p>
<p>I’ll second Dfree. I’ve met a lot of girls in the grade below me through extracurriculars. The whole clique thing isn’t nearly as apparent like he says.</p>
<p>I’m a senior, but last year I definitely felt sorta the way you did. (My 2 best friends moved away right before junior year started, so I was all lonely and whatnot, and I was crazy for my best guy friend, who did not feel the same- oh the typical teenage angst). I do think a lot of juniors have a rough time emotionally with all the stress they face. Seriously, find someone to talk to (a real person, not the internet haha). It may help you to just talk about how you feel with someone. </p>
<p>If you keep feeling sad and you can’t put your finger on why, consider seeing a doctor or psychologist for a depression test/screening. Depression is becoming more and more common among teenagers. Getting medication, or even just some therapy sessions, can really improve your mood and your whole life (take it from someone who knows).</p>
<p>^What she said.
Also, sleep. Don’t hang out with people who criticize you or make you feel bad. Don’t change yourself to be what other people want you to be. Don’t let other people’s opinions define you. Don’t make yourself do things you hate. Don’t get yourself into situations where you feel trapped. Make an effort to meet new people that you don’t hang out with or see in your typical lifestyle. Try something new. Branch out. Be adventurous. Don’t be scared to explore. Be confident in who you are, not who other people think you are. Refuse to accept sadness because ultimately, you can’t be happy and content unless you make the conscious choice to heal and be happy.
I’ve been fighting depression since I was thirteen, and I promise it does get better.</p>
<p>I just want to say a big “thank you” to everyone who posted here. Thank you all for the encouragement :). I feel much better now, and I’ll be sure to get more involved in ECs and see if I can find anyone interesting in the other grade levels … :D</p>
<p>Hm, I feel similarly to you almost everyday; I’ve been taking anti-depressants on and off since early 12th grade, however, with little to no effect.</p>
<p>I’m in a very similar situation. I actually did have a girl that I could trust (not a relationship, we were just really close friends), but then I found out that she wants to separate herself from me. It hurts, but I’ve been avoiding her for a few weeks now. Of course, throw on the fact that she doesn’t know THAT I know…Life =/</p>
<p>And I can’t wait for college. SO. FREAKING. BAD. Alas, it’s so far away…</p>
<p>I’ve decided to throw myself into being the best that I can be (Yes it sounds lame, but still ). I’m focusing much more on my academics, and I’ve been preparing for two upcoming science competitions. I’m looking at Internships and Summer programs. I’m working on the SAT (heehee we’re supposed to work together on this xD ). Basically, I’m keeping myself busy so I don’t feel so sad about it.</p>
<p>High school should be so much better. That basically sums up all my feelings. Like seriously, why can’t high school life just be an extension of an 80s movie?</p>
). I’m focusing much more on my academics, and I’ve been preparing for two upcoming science competitions. I’m looking at Internships and Summer programs. I’m working on the SAT (heehee we’re supposed to work together on this xD ). Basically, I’m keeping myself busy so I don’t feel so sad about it.</p>