<p>i actually grew up being taught by parents that i have to study hard and hard and within very few years it will all be JOY.
Struggle now enjoy later.</p>
<p>i always took this as,i’ll become rich after studying a lot and scoring top grades and stuff, and then i will have nothing to do in my life other than enjoy and whatever i wish ,with the lots of money i’ll earn…</p>
<p>Now,i’ve grown up and i know why they fooled me into believing this,just so that i studied hard.</p>
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<p>Over the years, I’ve been that NERD type of guy ,not by choice but i always put everything before studies just because i was BRAINWASHED to think thats all i need and ill be free in a few years.</p>
<p>Now this has led to VERY SERIOUS with my social life, I’m really very awkward socially.</p>
<p>I’m already 20,never had a GF…
I can count my friends on ONE hand,none of them REAL ones btw.</p>
<p>I grew up selfish because of the BRAINWASH and now its a habit, people think i’m a very selfish sucker which i really am…</p>
<p>now,at this stage of my life…</p>
<p>I CANNOT do 2 things in a day - guess what i mean?</p>
<p>I got an ON OFF switch.</p>
<p>I have a JOB i do as well - and I have to study as well.</p>
<p>Then comes something thats most important for me to get solved - The social Aspect.</p>
<p>Now,if i’m studying or reading or working - I JUST CANNOT SOCIALIZE WITH PEOPLE.
I THINK DEEP INSIDE THAT IM WORKING, I CAN ONLY CONCENTRATE ON ONE THING<</p>
<p>contrast to most people that study as well as talk along with it.</p>
<p>This is really fuc*ed up,i cannot multitask and when more people get to know me they’ll know
how dumb i am .</p>
<p>Damn :/</p>