<p>“Under his damn fist”-The way your are living your life is rendering you depressed. I’d recommend that a good start would be for your to crawl out of father’s control. Go your own way. Work & take night classes. The main purpose of which is to gauge your feelings. If you feel happier going your own way then you’ve found the cure. (BTW my assumption is that you are very young and have time to do the community college/work/university thing)? GL.</p>