What does your post even mean? How does Bowdoin “sucks to be in”?
You are either serious about getting an education in the US or your not. And claiming that a vibrant, intellectually challenging place like Bowdoin “sucks to be in” suggests you aren’t serious.
I think you need to do some introspection- what are you looking for in your education. Start there. And then shed every misconception you might have in order to find three things-
1- You are likely to be admitted
2- You are likely to be able to afford to attend
3- You will get the education you are looking for and cannot get by staying home.
These are the three. Nothing else matters right now.