There willing never be a “poof” moment when the stars align and all will be right in your world. Doing well takes sustained effort and like @Lindagaf said, a positive and hopeful outlook.
I agree with previous two comments…you need to look at your cup as half full instead of half empty…look for the good in all opportunities and not for the bad.
Give the clubs a chance. Give yourself and others a chance.
If you help build a house for a homeless person, don’t you think that will make you proud? Teach you valuable skills?
You will meet other people and maybe hear about why they joined this club.
It’s easier to be positive when you are not in a negative situation. I personally like using the past to make predictions for the present and future.
Oh and when I do text with other people, I’m the one that always initiates it. No one else reciprocates and resultantly they just tolerate me, from what I can see.
So? A relationship that starts out with just tolerating can evolve into liking and loving if you keep working at it. That will never happen if you don’t. But then again, that’s your choice.
Re your statement about using the past to predict your future, I think that is a futile exercise. You shouldn’t let your personal past dictate your future. You should not think “oh well, everything has been terrible so far, it’s going to keep being terrible.” Regarding texting, again, I am just hearing negatives. That is not going to help.
I’m so sorry that you are still having a hard time socially and feeling good about yourself. You do have challenges with your disability, but I think it’s great that you have gone to counseling, have a mentor, and have signed up for some clubs.
I think someone on CC mentioned this to you over the summer, but have you tried attending any faith/religious services or events? Most campuses have several groups, and many are open to people of all beliefs. They could help provide a kind of spiritual friendship and support for you that accepts you for the unique and worthy person you are. You could try different religious clubs until one clicks, or a secular club like one at my D’s called “Acts of Random Kindness”. Their goal is to “spread happiness and kindness throughout campus”. 
@NorthernMom61 This has been mostly the same people from last year who I associated with. And that’s the reason why I usually don’t text anyone since no one usually reaches out to me.
@Lindagaf Easier said than done to think positively all the time. Especially when you’re overwhelmed and everything you try to do right backfires.
@xanthippe I’m not a religious person at all, even if I was brought up Jewish. If anything, I’m borderline agnostic.
And if I can’t do anything then good luck being able to socialization in large groups. Also, I’m not very close with my suite-mates because I was thrown in with a friend group from last year that I had almost nothing to due with. I don’t know how people are able to socialize so well; must be because they had the skills in them to begin with whereas I acquire them like a foreign language.
I’m honestly surprised I haven’t broken down and cried yet this year, although I’ve come on the cusp a few times. I was like this during February and March all the time with a lot more hyperventilating. Numbness I suppose?
Ballroom dancing, maybe? I’m not athletic but I enjoyed that. Waltz is a beautiful thing.
Not everyone is social, at least not naturally. If you walk around your school, you don’t see any loners? Nobody else wishing they had a friend?
Ballroom dancing was super fun when I took it last semester, and since we rotated partners throughout the class there was no “picked-last” awkwardness.
@mommdc For the most part, people travel in packs or groups. And those who are alone appear to be indifferent about it (ie in the dining hall). And being in the Honors Program on top of all my other difficulties brings a whole new set of commitments and challenges. And I’m not sure if there’a a Ballroom dancing club, although I doubt it exists. It’s just not something I’m into. On a side note, there’s no student on campus I can fully confide in other than my RA (who is a senior). And my mom said if I don’t show marked improvement, then I might need to consider a different job path if not switch majors.
Well, then make it your mission to find other students.
Like I said previously, I’m not good at picking out body language (including loneliness) so that’ll be a challenge.
Be a detective, if they always seem to be alone…
Then maybe after a while, ask “want some company”? If they don’t, then ok.
That would require some courage on my part. For me, that would seem more daunting than for the average person for instance. And how would I know if they’re not alone by volition. This is most frequent at the dining hall. And would you agree with this advice from my mother? -If I don’t show marked improvement, then I might need to consider a different job path if not switch majors. Or possibly consider commuting if nothing works. But I’d miss stuff I were to commute to school (which would be even more humiliating since I don’t have a license).