<p>I made this thread to help myself, and maybe help others who feel the same way that I do.</p>
<p>I was a transfer applicant to UVA College of Arts and Sciences. When I applied to UVA from high school my ignorance led me to believe that I actually had a chance of getting in. Despite the fact that I had received numerous C’s and even some D’s throughout my high school years. My mind was so naive that I thought I could fall back on the B’s I managed to scrap by with. I came up with all sorts of explanations to justify my reason to apply. I was denied admission and I was disgusted with myself. My entire four years of high school I was just skating by, hardly putting in effort and thinking that I could still get whatever I wanted in life.</p>
<p>I graduated high school in May of 2007 with a 3.5 GPA, in the 47th percentile of my class. I then went to a 4 year college, which I am currently in right now. I strongly dislike the college I am currently attending. It is so close to my home, it is in the middle of a city, it has a reputation for being “the college that all the slackers go to.” I was distraught. However, I told myself that I wasn’t going to make the same mistake that I had made all throughout high school. I wanted to make something of myself, and do well.</p>
<p>I finished my first semester with a 4.0 taking 15 credits. I was ecstatic. I had never applied myself as much as I did during my first semester of college. I began to see what I was capable of when I showed effort. I knew I wanted to leave my current university and go to UVA, which was my dream school. UVA has everything I could possibly want, a beautiful campus, motivated students and faculty, excellent reputation, great sports teams, and more. I applied to UVA as a transfer after getting a professor recommendation and spending countless hours working on my transfer essays. </p>
<p>After submitting my application I was nervous for over a month, eagerly waiting for the decisions to be posted. I checked the transfer blog, and Dean J’s blog everyday multiple times. I posted comments on the blogs. I was addicted to the idea of attending this university. I had worked hard and wanted to attend UVA more than anything else I could imagine. I still told myself to think rationally and not get my hopes up. I knew that my high school record which was average to say the best, and my SAT scores were mediocre. I still had hope though, that maybe my upward trend would demonstrate my newfound outlook on life. I was a new man, and I was trying to distance myself from my past.</p>
<p>Today, April 25, 2008, I came to find out on the transfer blog that UVA would be posting the transfer decisions early. The moment I read that notice, my heart beat was erratic, and loud. I knew that today was the day I had been waiting for since the moment I graduated high school. The day to see whether I would get a second chance in life, to go to a prestigious university, work hard, and make a life that I would be happy with. I clicked on the status report online on UVA’s application website, and my heart which was beating so fast, was, in an instant, stopped. I read the line, “Admission: Not Offered.”</p>
<p>I didn’t know what to do at first, the feeling was like everything around me was still, frozen in time, and that I was able to just think. To sit there and let what just happened sink in. I didn’t know whether to cry, let out a nervous laugh, or yell. I chose to just sit there…staring at the screen. </p>
<p>I know that one semester of good college work doesn’t make up for 4 years of blissful ignorance. However, like any other human being I had hope, I prayed, I wished, and in an instant it all disappeared. I’m not writing this post for drama, or for reconsideration of my application. I am well aware that I deserved my outcome. I am just here to say that, no matter how hard you try, prepare and train yourself, you are never quite ready for one of Life’s “Shocks.” You can see it coming, but the shock is indescribable. </p>
<p>I currently am in my second semester of my freshman year. I had hopes of leaving this place and attending UVA in the fall, but that isn’t happening. As hard as it is for me to comprehend, and understand, I have to stay here for another year. I will, however, continue to work hard and always show persistence and dedication, towards everything I do. I love UVA, and being rejected for a 2nd time won’t stop me from trying again. I am not bitter, if anything my eyes have been opened. I have improved from high school and I am happy, but I will continue my pursuit in bettering myself. I wanted to end with this quote, which comforts me during times such as this one, </p>
<p>“Satisfaction lies in the effort, not in the attainment. Full effort is full victory.”</p>