<p>Deepest condolences to you, apollo6. You are so brave to share.</p>
<p>@Apollo6, so sorry to hear this devastating news. May you find comfort with friends and family and memories of your wonderful son.</p>
<p>@apollo so very sorry to hear this… my condolences to you and your family…I just cannot imagine the shock and pain…</p>
<p>@Apollo6, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It is folks like you who are so courageous to share their thoughts, feelings, and questions in such a difficult time who make this truly a supportive community. Your news is devastating for all of us. I hope that in some small way we, collectively, can bear part of your pain.</p>
<p>mdcmom: My older son was National Merit (VA) five years ago. He took an offer to the U. of Alabama, and he loved it! The scholarship has changed since he was there. Now it includes five years of tuition. That is huge, because your daughter could get her masters or double/triple major with ease. It is a beautiful campus, too. Take her on a visit. You will be pleased. I also know that UKentucky is beautiful. One of my son’s friends went there for a year and loved it – she transferred home because UK did not have her major. Still, she raves about the place.</p>
<p>If you have time, go see the two schools. They offer some awesome opportunities. I know it is far from home, but if she wants to go away, they are two excellent schools.</p>
<p>As for tuition increases, I do know that Alabama’s NM offer covers all tuition increases. Check with UK about it.</p>
<p>BTW, we are also familiar with Binghamton, as we used to live there many, many years ago. Excellent school.</p>
<p>@Apollo6 I am so very sorry for your horrible loss. Words probably won’t help much right now. But I just want to remind you that love is stronger than death and memories last forever. Hugs from San Francisco.</p>
<p>@Apollo6,I can’t breathe. I’m heartbroken for you. Simply heartbroken. And at the same time grateful that you had the courage to share and to give us advice. Wishing you some level of peace. </p>
<p>@Apollo6 - I am so sorry for your loss. </p>
<p>@Apollo6 - I am so, so sorry. My heart goes out to you. Please don’t ever blame yourself. You sound like a wonderful mom, as one who just wanted the best for her child. I am so glad you shared. Your son sounds like a very special, wonderful person loved by many. Keeping you and all your son’s loved ones in my prayers.</p>
<p>@Apollo6 I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family with be in my prayers. </p>
<p>Oh, @Apollo6, I am so sorry. I really want you to NOT “always wonder if (your) encouragement was too much”. I know this feeling as my D was near the point your son clearly was, a while ago… and I could not help thinking of what I could/should have done differently to prevent the suffering and pain she endured. But now I know what is the truth, and I truly hope that you will feel this way soon, too: that you loved him and were the best parent he could have and absolutely did your best. From your posts I know how much you loved and supported your son. This is not your fault. I am sending you as much positive/healing energy as I can. Hug.</p>
<p>@Apollo6,</p>
<p>I’m stunned…hands are shaking but needed to provide my condolences. I’m speechless and wish I knew what to say…I am so sorry. </p>
<p>@Apollo6 - I’m devastated and heartbroken for you. I wish I could somehow comfort you. Your son was an amazing gift and sometimes there are no answers. I don’t think he’d want you to take the blame for this. You do not need to be strong for others right now. I hope you can take some small comfort in how much outpouring of love and concern there is for you and your son. Please feel free to come back and share anything you want, if you need to vent or tell stories about him or just to check in. My prayers for you and all who love him.</p>
<p>@Apollo6,</p>
<p>I am so very sorry, there’s no way anyone can really know. You are a great mother and have done your best with a loving heart. I will be thinking of you and sending strength as you try to get through another day.</p>
<p>@Apollo6 I’m so so sorry. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.</p>
<p>@Appolo6,my deepest condolences. I will be thinking of you and pray that you will get through this.</p>
<p>Have been away from posting for quite some time. Checked in during lunch and read @Appolo6 's post. Her news shook me to my core. I am so sorry to hear this. Praying for you and your family today and in the days to come. Thank you for taking the time to share this with the CC community. We are here for you.</p>
<p>@Apollo6—I am so terribly sorry to hear of your loss. I wish I had words that could bring any comfort.</p>
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I am so sorry. </p>
<p>@Apollo6 You don’t always know. Your child puts on a brave face, hides the fact that he knows he doesn’t feel the way other people do. I am so sorry for your loss. </p>