<p>I took my philosophy final today, and my TA accused me of cheating, which I did not do. I studied my study guide until my eyes were practically bleeding, and I regurgitated the entire study guide into my test booklet before I even looked at the questions. I did this extremely quickly (I can type and write really fast), and then looked at the questions. My TA left the room twice during this time, and moved from his desk to a computer in this time period. Obviously, not every question on the guide made it on the test, so when I go to edit the word vomit in the booklet, my TA comes over and examines my booklet. He said there was no way I could’ve written all that I had since I sat down (it had been about 10 minutes), but he gave me back my booklet when I looked at him like he was crazy.
I suffer from an anxiety disorder, ocd, and ADHD. I’m supposed to have accommodated testing, but I forgot to email him within the right time frame about setting up the accommodation. I did email him twice about it however, one of which he claims he never got. I was trying to figure out if there was anything I could do in the 11th hour to take my test untimed and was late to the exam. To my TA’s credit, he did still allow me to take it. But, when he came over and questioned my work, my focus immediately shifted from my test to him. I was trying so hard not to have a panic attack that I couldn’t even answer the questions I didn’t know and fix my test booklet. Eventually I knew I wasn’t going to be able to finish it up properly, so I turned in my booklet. He questioned me again, and I tried to explain the fact that I have disabilities & have had a traumatic, stressful semester without letting my anxiety get the better of me. He didn’t seem to care or believe me, but he didn’t rip up my test booklet like I’ve seen happen in the movies. But he doesn’t really have proof that I did anything wrong…
I have hated college from the moment I got here. I’ve taken all sorts of different classes and liked none of them. I’m involved in activities, and it’s the only thing that’s kept me from dropping out or killing myself. I’ve changed my major countless times, but nothing ever clicks, and I end up slacking off and staying home because I hate my classes so much. I had anxiety issues before college, but they’ve escalated severely since coming here. My grades have dropped, I’m not taking care of myself, and nothing I’ve ever wanted to do requires a degree. This incident has me at my breaking point.
I feel like this is a sign from God or cosmic synergy (or whatever you believe in)… Should I just drop out?</p>
<p>Stop obsessing over
the test. It’s done and over with. You might want to look onto changing your degree or transferring to another college if you’re really unhappy with it. Everybody feels overworked during finals season. </p>
<p>Are you on medication, seeing a counselor, or taking other steps to overcome your anxiety issues? I really don’t think you should drop out because of this.</p>
<p>It sounds like you need to seek therapy for you anxiety issues. Once they are resolved you will be able to function much more effectively in college.</p>
<p>Are you getting any treatment? You have accommodations, so at least you can show him documentation of your LD. If I were you, I would meet with TA, explain what happened and ask to re-take the test. If he won’t allow that, speak to the Dean about it. Then you should seek out a good therapist to help with the anxiety and ADHD</p>