Okay. So, I am a freshman right now, and like the worrisome person that I am, I decided to stay up until 12:00 MIDNIGHT watching videos of how to get into Stanford and all that crap, because why the hell not?
And, of course, after seeing many, MANY lectures about the DO’s and DONT’s of college applications ,my stomach is now tied in knots just thinking about the fact that I won’t get into a good university.
I know that I am a freshman and that worrying about this is unhealthy, but I can’t help it and it scares the crap out of me knowing that universities can be very picky.
When I was in middle school, I SLACKED. I didn’t care for grades except getting A’s and B’s in the first two quarters. During the summer before becoming a freshman, I reassured myself that I would get a clean start in high school, keep my grades up, do everything in my will power to look academically decent. I started all my courses in freshman year REGULAR. And yes, that doesn’t really look too fancy, but I wanted to start small, and then work my way to the top until I reach senior year.
Sure enough, I followed through on my goal. I had a 3.5 GPA on the 1st semester, and ended with a 3.7. I joined Key Club and ended up with 80 hours. I had a good score on my PSAT, so they recommended me to take AP Computer Science Principles. I BUSTED MY ASS studying for the Biology EOC, Algebra 1 EOC, and the Reading/Writing FSA. Fortunately, I scored a 5 on all of them. I am proud to say that is really was a decent year.
Next year, I plan on taking all honors classes and AP Human Geography and AP Computer Science Principles. And although that does sound challenging as a person who only took all regular, I really feel that this is a step in the right direction.
While I am ECSTATIC with how the year went, I still have doubts.
Did I push myself hard enough? Should I have taken a few honors at the beginning of freshman year? Should I sign up for sports, even though sports is the LAST THING ON EARTH that I like? These questions that I’m asking all fall under the same big question that every scared student asks:
Am I good enough?
Seeing freshmen in my school taking Algebra 2 and Chemistry and AP World History with 4.0 GPA’s really makes me think that I’m not being the best person that I can be, even though I push myself as mush as I can.
While I’ve been trying to reassure myself that everything’s going to okay, I just constantly keep seeing myself being rejected from UC Berkeley, Stanford, GeorgiaTech and many other colleges that I would look forward to being in.
Is there still a chance for me to go to my dream colleges? Should I push myself more next year, or should I keep going the way I am now?
Thank you for your feedback. I appreciate it.
P.S: I’m not from Nepal AT ALL, I’m from Miami, FL. I don’t know why it says Nepal is my home.