Is there someone you can talk to, an adult, in real life, where you can express all this?
It’s okay - anyway you don’t have to do everything ppl on this thread say.
We’re all well-meaning and truly want the best for you.
What I hope is for you to get an acceptance before Xmas break so you stop stressing out and feel good, secure, knowing you ARE going to college and everything that comes on top of that acceptance is cherry on top of the cake.
And what I’m hoping for may not be the best for you. You know yourself.
(ETA: removed the part stressing OP out )
And if doing that makes you think and stresses you out, of today is hard as it is, don’t do it, do what’s right for you.
Hi all,
Cornell is finally gone. I gave up. I spoke to my parents; they don’t feel disappointed or whatever, and I’m letting it all out by crying.
I’m sorry for unloading, I didn’t mean to do it but now my depression levels are probably skyrocketed right now and I don’t expect it to go down from here until I actually realize that it’s gone.
But the treadmill of applications runs in my head. It won’t end; even if Cornell is ditched.
and, MYOS, can you (I ask this kindly) stop asking me to applying to other colleges (eg: SUNYs + more)? I only ask because it creates a void in my head that makes me think I need to add another college or I have no chance.
I know.
Anyways, I’m going to consider this the potential start of my CC hiatus. If anyone needs me, DM me. But outside of that, I’ll try to sprinkle in little updates when I remember. I think all the information that hits me when I read CC makes me freak out and realize my chances are minimized.
Sorry to disappoint everyone, I know you all feel it somewhere, if you’re not directly telling me.
well…to make you feel better, my hiatus has ended…but I feel like I haven’t given myself enough time to process everything except to constantly tell myself that “you’re suuuuper depressed. you can’t do anything about it.”
the last time i felt like this (severely!) was seven months ago from tomorrow. yeah.
and @MYOS1634 it’s not anyone’s fault. i just know i won’t feel any better in the short-term. hopefully long-term liv doesn’t do anything stupid (even though she has already, and i would not like to talk about it)
thank you, CC (as a whole), for being a great community. i plan on posting a mega post with regard to “managing your mental health in times of college applications” – i’m no expert, but i know how it affects my mental health and would like to tell others, as well.
wait, everyone, what do you think of me making that mega post…is it needed? or was it a stupid idea.
sorry, but what did you take out?
here are my individual thank yous: @blossom - thanks for fueling a new interest. and your words. sorry for making you cry. i’m sorry. so sorry for everything i’ve said. so sorry just for making you feel that way. @myos1634 - thanks for it all. my voids are not closed, they’re operating in my head right now, but i’m slowly trying to close them.
college applications > me (this will never change, i’m sorry to say it too) @mirandaknight - thanks.
and for everyone,
I appreciate you where all credit is due.
but my depression is currently eating me alive, hence why I rushed to get this message out before it makes me act out.
moderators, if you want, you can close this and if I have new updates maybe, just MAYBE, i’ll make a new one and you can combine this to that one.
i’m currently healing. and I need to see my therapist literally ASAP, but I have to wait til 11/10. so…yeah!
thank you all.
PS the treadmill of college applications will never turn off.
GUYS!!!
POSITIVE UPDATE!!!
I submitted my UB app 10/30, got my Status Update 12/13 at a ROBOTICS COMP!!! filmed my reaction video…
and I GOT IN!!!
Stats:
GPA: 86.11 UW, 86.90 W
SAT: 1310
Accepted to College of Engineering/Applied Sciences! @momofboiler1 Thank you for opening!!
update because I felt like it: I accidentally listened to my impulses and took the course and ended w/a 94 but I somewhat wish I didn’t because my Spanish grade is suffering and I need to get that up…
and
Congratulations for doing so well on the Northeastern AI certificate course but in your senior year having grades that suffer isn’t good because some universities may be asking for your 1st semester grades (before admissions) or can rescind your acceptance (after admission).
The grade will have a greater impact than the certificate, the potential for a negative impact from the former is much greater than any positive impact from the latter.
A good point is personal: you saw whether you’d be interested in the field and whether you could do well, and found out you could.
Fortunately you have a top notch acceptance already so your Spanish grade drop is not catastrophic but I hope you can right that ship and keep it right - Ds and Fs can lead to being rescinded, Cs would be okay at most state universities.
another status update: sent in my Binghamton app around the same time (+ same day) as the University of Buffalo and got deferred gotta wait til Apr 1 for the result and now I shall swim in the pool of RD applicants…
this is going into my college application quote book. once this process ends, I plan to share it on here
I mean, hey, watson’s CEAS < buffalo’s SEAS…
[*] I am so incredibly privileged for all my schools to be affordable. I know many people are unable to say such a thing, but i am so grateful. If you cannot afford a college, it doesn’t mean you’re poor, and you will get the education that is best for you wherever that may be.
RIT RELEASED MY DECISION…
I got in! to my fourth choice major (when I submitted my app it was my 2nd choice!) Biotechnology & Molecular Bioscience.
They gave me the Tiger Pride scholarship with $19k/yr!!
*If I had to choose btwn RIT & UBuff though, I’d go with Buff…because I got into my major !! :DD
)
but I somewhat wish I didn’t because my Spanish grade is suffering and I need to get that up…
gotta wait til Apr 1 for the result and now I shall swim in the pool of RD applicants…
I mean, hey, watson’s CEAS < buffalo’s SEAS…
to my fourth choice major (when I submitted my app it was my 2nd choice!) Biotechnology & Molecular Bioscience.
