I recall a girl in my son’s class saying at graduation that living in a dorm at BS is like a slumber party. You look forward to it. A lot of it’s fun. There’s drama and you feel tired and disconnected from the group in the morning. All different feelings around the same thing.
Give yourself whatever you need to feel comfortable- a weekend sleep in, a talk with a counselor, healthy food, a pass on self-judgement. Settling in can take time. Hoping you are taking care of yourself.