OP is at a tender age at which lifelong emotional scars can occur. OP’s situation appears to be quite serious. I do not think that,for example,a soldier suffering from PTSD should remain in a war zone. While the war & the soldier’s service will pass with time, any harm is likely to be compounded by remaining in the same environment.
OP: Do not be afraid to attend school elsewhere. It would not mean that you are a failure or that you are giving up a once-in-a-lifetime chance; it may indicate that you are facing reality and dealing with life in a manner designed to help you minimize further emotional & psychological harm while enabling yourself to heal faster.
@lilyesh
Are you looking for advice about how to handle things? Is that why you are willing to discuss details on a PM? I guess I always council being a little careful with those details when online.
I assume it must be pretty serious if you were home for a week. If I remember correctly you had posted about some drama at your old school as well. Not knowing the issue, but as this is not the first time you have been involved in “serious” issues, You may want to do some serious soul searching. Are you the sort of person who seems to often be in the middle of drama? Do you gravitate towards gossip and rumors and find it exciting to know everything? My kiddo has always avoided drama and people like that like the plague. She doesn’t get involved period. I tend to like to hear juicy gossip, but never want to be involved, and do not typically befriend the kind who always have drama, but have a couple of close and trusted friends that I can “gossip” with. I suggest you try to take a good look at where you fall. The best way to have situations die down is to not discuss them with students, to find friends who do not even know the daily “tea”. There are drama-less kids out there, I promise.
But no one knows everything that there is to you - hold that in your heart. They might think they know - but they only have a label. There may even be something positive about that label.
You’ll be pleasantly surprised, years later, what some of these people think of you, if you stay true to yourself and your values.
I’m so sorry to hear you are having a rough start!!! As others have said, high school dynamics are rough and can be amplified at certain schools. I think it is easy to become disillusioned during the application process. Schools put their best foot forward and it seems like you should automatically have a TON in common with your classmates since you all went through the same screening/application process so it seems like it should be easy to make friends. However, the reality is that people are there for all kinds of reasons and as good as admissions is, they don’t/can’t know everything about everyone. Good for you for trying to make it work FOR YOU.
OP: Lots of great inspirational, well-meaning posts. But, based upon my knowledge of the matter, this is a situation which requires more than just “staying above it all”.
After much thought, I encourage you to consider filling out some applications to other schools. When the results come in and you know your options,then discuss with your parents & other concerned & involved professionals.
