And you will also say hi, good morning, etc to those around you. It can’t hurt and it sounds like it’s good practice for you.
I hope you’ll be able to duck out for a few minutes tomorrow to call one of the counselors. Let us know tomorrow night how that went, and how the rest of your day went.
We’re rooting for you.
OP, if you can’t bring yourself to say good morning, hello, or look people in the eye tomorrow - if you really just cannot do this - then don’t. Just don’t. Bring your headphones in and do your work.
When asked why you left on Friday, you can state with honesty that you felt ill. I think this is a 100% honest statement because it does sound like you are dealing with some undiagnosed condition right now, be it physical or mental.
If you utterly cannot bear staying an entire day tomorrow, report your illness and leave again. But please don’t quit. At the end of the day, you might need and even want this job. I think you are not in a position to decide that right now.
And most importantly-SEEK MEDICAL HELP IMMEDIATELY. Do not pass go, and if these feelings overwhelm you again tomorrow, go to the emergency room. Lack of sleep is a serious issue. Whatever else is going on with you needs a diagnosis and treatment.
Take heart- this is fixable! You just need to take the steps to fix it. This starts with good medical care.
@claudeshannon, I am eager to hear how your day went.
Unless unemployment laws are different in OP’s state, one also can’t get unemployment if one’s fired for cause in the states I’ve worked in/know of.
If getting unemployment’s a concern, getting fired for cause as this could end up being is the last thing OP wants unless his/her state has more open-ended unemployment laws.
OP, please let us know how you are doing even if it didn’t go well today, You’ve received good advice and you need to keep reaching out for your own sake.
Well, I almost didn’t go today. I was late for 2 hours. The girl from another team whom I texted persuaded me to come, and told me that there is nothing to worry. My mom was crying, and so I drove to work. There were people who asked me how I was feeling, and they seem to care, so that made my day… Listening to music and audiobook helped control my anxiety.
So, everything seems fine…. I think.
Only one counselor called me back, and gave me times that were inconvenient, and no available appointment this week. I have some issues with my health insurance, so I need to fix that first before I go to an appointment.
I told my mom she doesn’t have to keep crying, so I’ll go to work. It might just really be that I need to control my thoughts, because when I struggle, it seems like things are darker than it is. I tend to always think of the worst outcome.
Anyway, thank you to everyone who shared their advice and opinion. I truly appreciate it. Reading the posts really helped lessen the pain that I was going through. That weekend was really tough for me. I was ready to just quit, and not care about what will happen to me… and I’m glad that I came here and ask for advice.
IMO ,You need to still work on getting an appointment to help you work some things out. Don’t just let it go.
Hang in there and go to a doctor. I think you will be surprised how much better you can feel once you get professional help. You come across as a sensitive likable person. Take care of yourself. You are worth it.
@claudeshannon There is a severe shortage of psychiatrists where I live and wait times can be as much as two months. I mentioned to a receptionist in one office (when trying to make an appt. for my son) that the delays were worrisome because a new patient could have serious problems and not be able to wait. She assured me that they make exceptions for patients in distress. YOU are in distress and your anxiety is clearly getting in the way of your daily life. PLEASE share what you’ve told us when you call the doctor’s offices. Tell them you are worried about getting through even one day.
If they don’t help you with an appointment within 24 hours call another doctor, then another, and another until you are successful.
I am very glad to hear that your co-worker convinced you to go in yesterday and that your day at work was tolerable.
It may be necessary for you to schedule an appointment at an inconvenient time and take an hour or two out of the office for an appointment. In most situations, that shouldn’t be an issue. Just tell your manager you have a doctor’s appointment. Don’t let an inconvenient time be the reason not to pursue this at all.
If you’re trying to use your EAP, that’s entirely separate from your health insurance. Nevertheless, if there are issues with your health insurance, of course you should get those straightened out.
“Only one counselor called me back, and gave me times that were inconvenient”
We all have to see doctors at times that are inconvenient for us. Don’t let inconvenience be an excuse not to go. Good luck!
You may need an anti-anxiety medication. A counselor most likely can’t prescribe. Your regular GP may be willing to provide a prescription, even if it’s just a 30-day script while you wait to see a psychiatrist or counselor. That could be a huge help and the counseling would go hand-in-hand with drug treatment.
It is difficult to be your own health advocate, but you need to keep pushing to get the treatment you need. Getting the initial appointments can be the biggest hurdle. Make this your biggest priority!
“I tend to always think of the worst outcome.” - this is very good, then you plan and prepare for the bad things and when they do not happen, it should make you very happy and satisfied. So, based on this, you should feel very happy most of the time, right?
Really miamidap? How does such a flippant comment help anyone?
@claudeshannon, please let us know how you’re doing.
"Really miamidap? How does such a flippant comment help anyone? "
- if it helps me (to be prepared for the worst!), why it would not help somebody else? I did not mind whatever your advice was, why are you saying that I am not allowed to express myself … but forget it, I really do not care…
@MiamiDAP the last sentence was the part that could come across as insensitive. Perhaps adding a “winky face” at the end would’ve helped to show that it was merely a joke.
Don’t let us diagnose you.
You are reaching out, and seem to have more issues than work.
See a counselor, just as you would see a doctor if you broke your leg.
Try to stick it out with work for now, maybe try to figure out some positive things you get from work.
Also put your family’s influence into perspective.