<p>Hey, I took up the violin at age 47 (see below), and opera singing at 52, and I’ve actually turned out okay at one of them. ;)</p>
<p>The Low End of Submediocrity</p>
<p>So in case any of you are interested, let it be known that I am still playing the violin.</p>
<p>Playing is the operative word. Having taken it up 14 years ago (I’m now 61), I haven’t actually worked on my playing in a long time. I have no expectation of ever getting any better (whether I actually could if I put more effort into it will never be proven one way or the other), and I’m accepting of the fact that my violin playing has settled down to inhabit the low end of submediocrity. </p>
<p>The reality is that I’m quite comfortable there. I sit in the second row of second violins in my local community orchestra (perfect for my eyes), and we are a fun bunch and enjoy each others’ company. I joke with my stand partner that if one of us manages the correct notes and the other the correct rhythms, together we’ll equal one whole violinist. When it comes to the notes, I am batting better than .300. I am in no danger of being dropped from the orchestra – I am one of its founders, and we have no auditions. We’ve had players from 12 to 90. </p>
<p>We make name plates out of file folders. Paul the conductor is an old Yankees fan, so I’ve labeled the four sides Mantle, Maris, Berra, and Ford. When I’m feeling angelic, I use the other one – Raphael, Gabriel, Uriel, and Michael. I rotate them on occasion, just to keep Paul on his toes.</p>
<p>I still can’t do runs of sixteenth or thirty-second notes, and sometime struggle with the eighth-note ones as well, but I’ve learned to count pretty well, and play the first note of each measure of the run with authority. With long notes, I work on tone. When it’s too difficult, I sit it out. When I can play an entire piece well, Paul knows the work is probably a little too easy for the rest of the orchestra.</p>
<p>There was a day when, due to illnesses and etc., I was the only second violinist present. I was quite surprised at how well I could hold my own (actually, I think it might have been a little easier). And just this year, we had a breakthrough! Paul asked the second violins to play more quietly. We looked at each other in disbelief, unsure whether to take it as a compliment that we were playing boldly enough that someone could actually hear us, or to worry about poor intonation. (Paul did explain it was the former.)</p>
<p>At any rate, playing the violin in the orchestra for me is like doing yoga for others. All other thoughts disappear from my mind. Worries, concerns, and shopping lists vanish as I struggle to read the music and keep up. Occasionally, my playing is sufficiently adept that I can actually revel in the sounds produced by others. </p>
<p>My most memorable occasion playing the violin was a time I didn’t play at all. In the summer, the Northwest Mahler Festival holds “reading sessions”. A full orchestral work is chosen, a professional conductor engaged, and for $10, any one can get on stage and play. The first chairs of each section are often professional players from the Seattle Symphony, and some of them bring their students along. In the first half of the evening, we read through the music, with the conductor providing commentary. In the second half, the group actually performs the work straight through.</p>
<p>I went the night the group was to work on Stravinsky’s Rite of Spring. It’s an extraordinary composition, filled with what are often described as “primitive” (actually, very complex) polyrhythms, and scored in typical Stravinsky fashion so that instruments all play at the highest and lowest parts of their individual ranges. When first performed as a ballet in Paris in 1913, it is said to have caused riots in the streets.</p>
<p>When I plunked myself down in the middle of the second violin section, I already knew I was in way over my head. I occasionally knew where we were, I did manage to play about 25% of the notes, but that really wasn’t why I was there.</p>
<p>At intermission, I approached the conductor, and he readily agreed to my plan. For the second half of the evening, I put away my violin, and took my seat in the second violin section, still with my score. And I got to hear Stravinsky’s Rite of Spring from the middle of the orchestra. The music (which I know by heart – I have a very good musical memory) swirled around me – English horns honked, violins whistled, oboes swooned, cellos murmured, drums rattled. I was in the orchestra, even if I didn’t play a note. It remains one of the highlights of my musical life.</p>
<p>I had learned in school that one can only enjoy things one is good at, and, more critically, one should only pursue things one is good at, and furthermore, resources should only be expended for students to participate in activities they are good at. And, still further, one shouldn’t undertake anything difficult unless one is prepared to sweat at it. I am a living demonstration that all four principles are schoolish mythology, and act as detriments to the ultimate quality of our lives.</p>
<p>This is not a paean to mediocrity. On the contrary, my experience with the violin has massively increased my appreciation for those possessing the talent, and who put in the time, energy, and effort to reach the pinnacles of musical excellence (or anything else for that matter). But I also have learned that I need not be a passive spectator, and that I can take control of my experience, and my learning, at whatever level I choose. It has taken me four decades to get there, and an awful lot of deschooling, but I am thankful to have arrived. I sweat at writing this article, not at playing the violin. And, hey, I play better than Yehudi Menuhin! (he’s been dead a long while)</p>
<p>In the meantime, I owe a great debt of gratitude to Paul and my fellow players for putting up with me.</p>