Hello dear CollegeConfidential student/parent/supervisor, or University of Virginia forum follower! (<- I was once an avid stalker too…XD )
If you haven’t viewed all of the posts since two years ago, I believe we need some acquainting.
My name is Youjin, now a senior but once an immature and overanxious junior.
Up until last year, I thought that college would define me. I stressed over not nothing but over everything. I pressured myself into believing that if I got into UVA my life would become considerably easier. People would no longer look down on me, and that I would gain the confidence I craved for. But now that EA decisions are over, I have come back as I have promised.
I have been deferred from my dream school.
I’m in-state, so the 56% rejected? I’m in that 56%. (Deferrals are not complete rejections and I am extremely lucky and blessed for this much, but my fear of RD is pushing me towards more modesty than arrogance XD)
It hurts, definitely. Absolutely devastating. On Thursday I cried out all of my bodily fluids into my pillow. But now that my self-pity has been replaced with denial, 
I just wanted to say a few things.
I don’t matter to you, and honestly, I never will. I don’t even deserve to post this on the main forum. (I’m very fearful towards the indifferent and apathetic comments I see often on CollegeConfidential… please go easy on me)
I was that annoying kid. Who asked if a 4.09 would be good enough for UVA, and surprisingly my post was good enough for a response from Dean J. (Thank you for your reassurance, but regardless, I posted a chance me.
A year later I must confess to my childish ways and I want to apologize. I am extremely sorry. )
… and ironically! My gpa ended with a 4.009 for junior year! (weighted of course .-. XD)
Surely I don’t have your impressive scores or ecs, and I relied more on luck than merit… I was hoping that through some miraculous miracle XD, I would get in. Not recommending, or discouraging you from having this mindset…
BUT TO ALL THE TO BE SENIORS! I understand YOUR ANXIOUSNESS OVER STATS AND ECS! (not 100% but to an extent)
I used to hate it when someone poured out their own self-made story saying “the college you go to doesn’t matter”, BUT IT REALLY DOESN’T. Honestly, I expect no one to take these words seriously (as I didn’t, not until now), but I just want everyone to know that it’s true. The stories you hear. The success/failure anecdotes. To sum everything up, EVERYTHING’S POSSIBLE IF YOU PUT IN ALL YOUR EFFORT, REGARDLESS OF WHERE YOU GO!
If you fight for it, you’ll end up where you want. (I sound so cheesy, and I also need to confess that this was a little spur of the moment decision)
I’ve read so many posts about the results, I wanted to cheer at least one person up. YOU’RE NOT ALONE!
UVA is a great school, an amazing school, and UVA was my dream school… BUT EVERYONE HAS MORE THAN ONE DREAM!
I INTEND TO PURSUE MY GOALS REGARDLESS!
I DO NOT WANT TO DISCOURAGE ANYONE FROM APPLYING!! UVA TRULY IS AN AMAZING SCHOOL (although you probably know…)
I admit that I’m still hoping for some good news this spring, but I’m now more acceptant of the different possibilities.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL! (If anyone curious, I will proudly share my stats with you!?)
…and please excuse my grammatical errors … and overuse of smiley faces(… and my love for the word ‘regardless’)